i stuffed my gullet got a little drunk and generally tried to catch up on my rest so i can be back to work for tonight... yay... feel the joy. well lots of joy related to the former, not so much the latter. and once again a new year is about to be rung in with the ideal that things will be different for everyone willing to make a resolution to ( Read more... )

that's a good lesson to me. No drinking in the early mornings. I know I won't keep that rule, just because of the shift and the hours that I keep. At seven a.m. it's pretty much my night time. I finally have a job, I've been working it for about three weeks now. It's pretty much monkey work but whatever, if I keep scrounging for hours I'll ( Read more... )

got lot's planned for myself in the upcoming year, most of it bordering on the physical activity side of things. I've invited a few people to come along with me, but with or without them I'll still be doing what I plan. I'm starting to realise that I'm pretty much more sucessful the less people there are in my life. Not to say I don't mind the ( Read more... )

so far my endeavours in amherst have proved fruitless, I'm still waiting on a call back from my job prospect before I move onto another, mostly because it's my top choice, and I don't really want to have to refuse other jobs if this one goes through, that and if I did have to apply at these places in the future I certainly doubt they'd consider ( Read more... )

I figure half my problem is that I smoke way too much dope. I'm making a concious effort to cut back, I really don't know how that's working out. good I guess. my only issue is the angry time I have without it. Not all that pleasant. I don't really feel all that positive either. which I'm sure is just another side effect. today though I feel good, ( Read more... )

slept terribly last night. Had some very fucked up dreams, they were very clear and somewhat realistic, I swear if I hadn't of woke up that they were real. I should have wrote it down, I can't remember much of it. My mom was in it, so were a few other people. the sun was starting to come up before I finally drifted off, I thought the rain might ( Read more... )

how the hell do people remain positive? I can't seem to figure it out, and the moment I do try to engage in some sort of positive thinking the exact opposite outcome occurs. I don't know what do or say to have this happen to me most times, but it's really getting irritating and difficult to remain positive when everything looks like one huge ( Read more... )

that about sums up how I feel in this situation. I don't really know why I'm typing anymore in relation to this, it really isn't going to speed things up next week I file again. this will make about six weeks back owing I think. I just keep looking at the laptops on tigerdirect and calmly and patiently wait. I manage this by playing video games ( Read more... )

I've been home for a month and have done pretty much nothing except for play the waiting game. I'm not very good at the waiting game, in fact I'm down right terrible at it. I guess I'm just waiting to see if I have to get the money together to go to school for what I want or if I can get sponsored and actually have a trade with in the next couple ( Read more... )

I applied for unemployment. I don't think I'll get it but that's okay, I'm still going to apply for school in the fall and see where that gets me. Right now everything is kind of a jumble and a bit of a waiting game. I'm really not a big fan of waiting games. I guess it's something to learn though, so I really shouldn't complain so much. I've got ( Read more... )