It's been a rough couple of weeks.

I thought that once I graduated, my life would fall into place, but I was wrong.  It's been over a month since I got my magic slip of paper from MSU, and my life looks bleak.  No job, no money... I had 2 opportunities for a well-paying job, but neither of them panned out: one I never got a call back after the ( Read more... )

Joel came to visit last weekend and stayed for a week.

Oh, but it was a wonderful week!  Sunday we went and saw Ocean's Thirteen.  Very good movie; I recommend it anyone.  Very well written.  Kudos to the script writers.  Monday, he went to Magic, like always, and then we stayed up late watching videos on YouTube.  Tuesday we just puttered around; ( Read more... )

I have been on a cleaning RAMPAGE the last two days.  It's like I'll get up at 6:00 a.m., take my ADHD med so I can concentrate, and then I'll clean until the ADHD med wears off and I lose concentration.  And yesterday, I even cleaned a couple hours after the ADHD  med wore off... After a break, of course.  Joel called me "The Cleaning Nazi" today.

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So yeah, tonight Joel and I talked on the phone for an hour or so, and we aired out a lot of insecurities.  I didn't get to ask him everything I wanted to, like "Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with me?"  That one's been nagging at me for some time now.  He keeps talking about it, and I don't know if he means it.  I mean, I've ( Read more... )

Today was a good day.

Joel was such a major sweetie today, I wanted to just hug him and not let go.  He went to the card shop today to pick up a couple of things, and on the way back, he just bought me flowers.  No reason, just because he wanted to.  They're daisies.  I went to Goodwill and got a vase for them and now they're on the coffee table, ( Read more... )

Had another crazy conversation with Joel today.  He was talking about how he got free lottery tickets at work, and he actually said the words, "If I'd won, I'd have proposed to you."  Wow.  Freaky shit.  But at the same time, I don't know if he realizes what he's saying.  He's still young (20 years old), so I wonder if he understands what he'd be ( Read more... )

Man, this Spring Break is going to SUCK!  I work from 11:30pm to 7:00am every night except Tuesday and Wednesday... and Joel works on Tuesday.  The only real free night I'll have is Wednesday ( Read more... )

It's been an eventful couple of days.  My head is still reeling from it all.

Joel and I had a long talk a couple of days ago, and the "M" word came up.  It kind of freaked me out, partly because I HAVE been thinking about it, and partly because Joel ALSO has been thinking about it.  I mean, we've been together less than 8 months (not by a lot, but ( Read more... )

Today was a bad day.  When I went to lunch with the 'rents, I was excited.  I got a new car as a birthday present!  Thank you tax returns!  I was astounded by how much my parents got back... I guess it pays to take into account how far you have to drive to get places.  I'm filing that piece of information away for further use ( Read more... )

Joel and I had a bit of an incident this morning.  I told him 3 times that I didn't want to have sex, and he didn't believe me.  I eventually gave in, but now I hurt inside.  I thought I'd left that shit behind, and Joel seemed perfect.  But apparently if you get a heavy dose of Ambien into the boy, he stops caring about what YOU want and only ( Read more... )