I hate to say it, but everything in my life right now is wrong

I try to make it through my life, in my way, theres you
I try to make it through these lies, and thats all i do
Just don't deny it
Don't try to fight this and just deal with it,
thats just part of it.

we dream of ways to break these iron bars, but is that all it is iron bars? what if that which holds us down never lets us free. are we ment to forever live in the regret of our choices. forever trapped by the thoughts of what could of happened or what should of happened. they say that you control your thoughts, but what happens with the thoughts ( Read more... )

At  that moment where i cannot believe it is happening to me

so here it goes again. my biggest fear in life is dropping down and dying right in the middle of a lacrosse game. my heart has been a piece of crap and i don't know why. hell i did better when i was on weed, probably should get back on that again. the only person in my life that knows that probably hates me and i don't know why it is so hard for me ( Read more... )

you know how i know that i care so much? because it pains me to have to let go. it hurts me to think that i won't be able to hold you or touch you or kiss you for 4 months. that is how i know things are different. thats how i know that you have changed me

you know that moment in life where everything around you crumbles and you think that you are alone. well today seems to be that day. i made the biggest mistake of my life and now i am alone in my thoughts. people don't believe me but i know what i truly feel. it is something i have never felt before the only problem is that i may lose it

i write, but i know that know one reads this. it is livejournal, who would possibly come back to a childish thing like this? i was told by a friend that writing what you had stored up inside of you would help get everything off your chest and they were right. so i write about things going on in life about, about problems that come from east coast ( Read more... )

You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me

i don't understand. greatest 12 days ever but it all just seems like a distant dream
how did she fall apart right in front of my eye's.
Grandma i love you ( Read more... )

i was crazy about you. you were all i could think about. the problem was i didn't think you felt the same way. we talk but only because i was always the one to start up the conversation. fear sank in, i thought i was just going to be a guy that you couldn't get to stop texting you. it has happened before to me and i didn't want that to be the case ( Read more... )