o fuck this, it always seems like bad timing for me.  i spent better part of a year and half searching and it finally comes to me when i am leaving.  at this point i am not sure if it is worth leaving behind.  why is it so hard? why couldn't i have found it earlier? i blame the one that broke me, the one that made me feel less and incapable of ( Read more... )

 why is it so hard to open up? she likes me, i know she does but something holds me back.  what happen to me? i use to be good at this but its like something stabbed me in the heart and know i am afraid to open to anyone

please be one i can trust

 Its amazing how one person can make you feel this way

 so why is it that everyday i go to school someone asks me if i am ok...do i really act that different, is there something wrong with me?  maybe i am just so fed up with this high school bs that all i want is for the summer to come and school to end

i don't know whats right anymore

man why is amanda so weird?!? lol :)

so my life is decided for me and whenever i show interest in something else i am told to stick to what i know best....i train and i work and i practice for something that is only going to last me 4 years....the last four years of my life wasted to get me here, to get me to what is suppose to be my future but somehow i feel like i've missed ( Read more... )

Do u ever get that feeling that ur out of place and the only thing to make it better for everone else is to just go way to a far place?

I am sick of all of this.......lies, secretes, everything....its ok nobody cares and its better that way that nobody askes why.....why should anyone care????

I was pondering the other day (and yes i do ponder every once in awhile), and i realized that my life is pretty boring i do the same shit over and over again and i need to find something new to do. let me know if u got any ideas.