I'm feeling sick of worries. Spend all night reading up on the oil crisis (Peak Oil) and the desaster in the gulf of Mexico. I fear the worst. While America ponders to access their strategic oil reserves, Germany does the same. But for what (in Germany)? To bring down the gasoline prices for cars and the like. That's madness. What about a real ( Read more... )

I've just spend a lot of time at that site: http://www.lifeaftertheoilcrash.net/ , and I would like to encourage anyone who reads this to visit that site and take a thorough look themselves ( Read more... )

Long time no entry.

My mother was with me since thursday. Been ok, but after a while I wanted to be alone again, which I am now.

There's a street festival out there, the festival of the city quarter in which I live. Lot's of noise.

I'm feeling numb.

I'm coming out of my life. Of the old one. ( Read more... )

"Yeah, love is ... something like love." (Markosz Telmahn)

I'm thinking of one thing lately, something Nietzsche wrote. He had said himself down one day and thought about how to do the worst thing to someone, and found that it is to put the person to shame. Nietzsche also thought about what he'd love most in other people, and he found that it was his own hope ( Read more... )

I've just come back from divine service at the chapel in my hospital. Originally I had planned to partake in the divine servide at 10:30 this morning at a little church in Dresden which had been recommended to me by an american christian I know, but I overslept this morning. So I was just glad to know that at my hospital was another service, at 18: ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a longing for youth again. To find myself in the same self like I found myself in sometimes between 16 and 21. The difficult thing is that back then I had agreed to being lost, to living for my self. But exactly this appreciation of being lost isn't possible for me now. I know I'd simply wither like an old flower if I did this again. I ( Read more... )

and still I do not seem to understand ( Read more... )

"It is in loving God, other men (women), and all creatures for themselves that we begin to partake of their goodness and beauty. Looking at and loving that which is other than ourselves, we begin to 'incarnate' it. This is vital to artistic growth, just as it is to spiritual and psychological growth. Alienation in the form of introspection, self- ( Read more... )