argggh! i hate it when people think that believing in god is an excuse to do nothing with your life." if god wants me to have a job he will give me one".. no bitch go get it

i think about things differently. On the bright side I am much more responsible, and better put together in the head. On the down side im alittle uptight and not as funny as i used to be. I need to scrub my kitchen floor and do the dishes.. there is nothing funny about that though. hmm AFI kinda sucks now ( Read more... )

urghhh today is a very sluggish morning.I feel lazy. It's like i am just waiting around for school to start. I mean i love spending time with Lily. It's like i am getting lazy just hanging around the house. I need to go to the gym tonight. I need to study my drugs, and terminology and body systems. okay lily is crying gotta go get her

I now have a child Lily Leilani Peek. she is 13 months and is walking.. Ive been clean and sober for 2 years in August. Jeff has been in jail since October.sucks. I miss him. Jeff and i have been together 3 years on July 4th. I recently graduated as a Medical Assistant. But i am waiting until September to start school for Nursing. So i got the ( Read more... )

I wanted to spend time with jeff before i left. we are together alot but it's not alone.. ever.. and the few times that we were alone.. it was like.. corey andsuporia picking up my mom from work.. which is not enough time to talk or have sex (maybe sex.. if it's a lightening round).. So we never have sex.. and i don't like to talk about everything ( Read more... )

i have a sore throat and period cramps.. and i feel like i need to be babied.. i am no spring chicken.. if i were to be categorized as a chicken.. it would be that exotic disco looking chicken that my brother used to have.. before his dog ate it.. he was old and crazy.. but man was he cool.. " you can tell by the way i use my walk I'm a woman's man ( Read more... )

right now it is 7:00 in the morning and i'm still awake..jeff already left to work.. i hope he gets sent out today.. he frustrates me sooo much sometimes ( Read more... )

okay so appearantly as it's always been and probably always will be... i'm fucking impossible... i don't know what to do with everything... i don't even know exactly what i'm saying... i'm a fucking hypocrite... and that sucks.. but just because i know this doesn't change the fact that i am. i still think what you're doing is wrong.. i think its ( Read more... )

okay im depressed. maybe its because im fucking sick, maybe because my ba-jay-jay is sick.. maybe because i cant make money to save my life.. maybe because every now and then i go through an (i'm a fucking loser that hates everything)phase..i don't know fucking why.. but i feel like im desparate to change... i don't see that happening.. i really ( Read more... )

If i leave here tomorrow ( Read more... )