well the woman gave me 10$ for being good :-/ thats weird. but ill take money anyday! :-D she said shell give me 10 more if i clean my room spotless but its trashed but i need a tuner so i guess that ill do it.

omg i was really pissed that eddy called (dad) so i thought "o ok lets do self mutilation" yeah cuz u know i like pain. so i took a lighter burned a screw and shoved it into my leg. AND IT HURT!!!!! not in the good way either. it was like sending a messege to my head say "HEY PAIN IS BAD" it really hurts rite now! but its not that bad. it prolley ( Read more... )

well travis N rachel are at the beach for a while :-/ that sux bc they are pretty much my only contact with the out side world! well theres still shells and paul. ne whoo. i am so sore from exercisng! i did 20 sit ups and like 80 crunches. all i know is i got to 100. :-D yay! im happy bc i have the energy. i guess from the diet pills. omg i ( Read more... )

well i got my gee-tar (stuck in my head thanx to paul) today! it rocks! i love it. ttyl

HELLO. I DID 80- CRUNCHES AND MY STOMACHE IS FUCKING KILLING ME!!!!!!!! but it is all very worth it. i might start weight watchers soon. i dont know yet. but i will be happy if i loose even 1 pound this month. bc i gained all teh others that i lost back which really totaly sux! so i have to try super duper hard this time!!!!!!! omg my belly hurts ( Read more... )

the waoman just called from work and she said that she got way more on her pay check then she thought so that means that i can get my guitar tomorrow. :-D im gonna sell my bass and then were gonna go get my new acoustic! YES! I CAN NOT FUCKING WAIT!!!!!!! I Think its gonna be super fun to play. i mean bass is bad ass and everything but i think ( Read more... )

well last nite tiffani got all pissy and was being a cunt! i was so pissed off at her. but o well! ne ways

not much is going on here...just stuck here with the woman. but shes going to work in like a hour or so..so thats good. ne ways...im gonna go cuz theres nuthing else to talk about :-/

well....i am kinda bored off my god damn ass! i really want to get out of this house..but the woman is at church so that means i cant leave the house. not that i wud ne ways. :( o well.

well i was just watching the news..and there was a story on all of the meds that i have been on, lexapro,zoloft,paxil cr, paxil and calaxa..ne ways it was saying that all of those meds have been proven to push the person over the edge and make them comitt suicide. :'( my mom was watching it too and she was like "o shit" but i really dont feel like ( Read more... )

i can not say how much better i feel today! things seem to have went away! i am not sad anymore...i think that i just needed that emotional moment..to feel better bc i feel tons better. and thats good bc i dont like being sad. but ne ways..im gonna go ttyl