Sometimes I wonder, why I even bother. I try to do something, and it always comes out bad. It's better to keep your mouth shut when in doubt, isn't it? I hate expressing my emotions, because It screws up everything.but It doesn't matter now, what's done is done. Nothing we can do to change the past ( Read more... )

I don't understand why,
See it's burning me to hold onto this,
I know this is something I gotta do,
But that don't mean I want to,
What I'm trying to say is that, I love you, I just,
I feel like this is coming to an end,
And its better for me to let it go now, than hold on and hurt you,
I gotta let it burn.

I think I may have broken something. Everything hurts... ouch.

I've got serious issues. I think I have everything figured out, and I'm just so sure of things, then I think about her, and I'm just not sure anymore. Gosh. What is wrong with me.... But I don't know. I can only hope for things to get better.

Last night was prom. I think it may have been the best night of my life. It was so much fun ( Read more... )

We had a track meet tonight, and it was so stinkin' cold. It was actually snowing when we got there. I had two pairs of warm pants, but was still cold. But we ended up losing, by just one point. Kind of a bummer. But still fun, I suppose ( Read more... )

It's finally spring break. I'll have some time to catch up on things, there is alot to do ( Read more... )

Well, it's over between me and ashley. I was such a jerk to her though, it seems. She deserves far better than me. I tried, very hard, but you can't make up feelings that aren't there, can you? Try as hard as you want, but its near impossible. And yet I feel so terrible, my hands are shaking as I type this. Yet again I've made the mistake of ( Read more... )

curiousity will kill the cat.....

well, its kind of difficult to describe what i'm feeling right now. I've lost a great friend of mine, but its almost like she doesn't even care. I guess it doesn't matter though. Sure, I had feelings for her. But, truthfully, i don't want anything more than to be friends with her. I haven't been acting like it, i suppose, so she thinks i'm trying ( Read more... )

I'm going through a hard time with something. I've been struggling with it for a while, but its gotta worse in the past week. It seems that it would be so simple to end it, but its not. What is wrong with me? I'm so selfish.. I want to protect her, but i can't. She's gonna do what she's gonna do, and i can't do a thing about it. And i mean, i ( Read more... )