if i could stop getting guilt tripped on purpose by my parents for ridiculous things.
uhg i had a good day/night. i wanted to come home and finish that off but no, i was greeted with another one of my moms little notes with basically everything she told me tonight on the phone but MORE, -- icing to the guilt trip.

i have to wake up at 530 tmmrw im ( Read more... )

i finally realized that i need to figure everything out and that i need to be patience because its going to take time because i have no idea how to figure it all out.

who knew growing up could be so tough.

"oh you want a life? well guess what i dont have a life anymore so you better start helping me out so i can have one again ( Read more... )

im getting pretty good at this whole thing of not letting people, or rather the opposite sex in.  idk, im finally to the point with david were i can honestly be friends with him and i just want him to be happy. i thought that was true before but it wasnt cuz i didnt want to have anything to do with him cuz i couldnt get past it. now we have been ( Read more... )

will get better, it has to.

"Don't carry the world upon your shoulders"

across the universe was amazing. the friends i spent the trip with are amazing. i love city lights. san fran was just what i needed.
my  heart is so confused. but im making it stay low. its done with the field its time for sidelines unless someone gives me a good enough reason to ( Read more... )

is a new day.
the weather is perfect.

please let a smile or a laughter pop out today.
it will be a good day, im determined.

you know somethings wrong when you dont even want to be hugged by your mother or father anymore ( Read more... )

you actually stick up for yourself and finally speak to the truth to when you never do, you get called the "bitch".

hey just cuz im nice doesnt mean ill let someone walk all over me but that doesnt give you the right to say im a bitch then.

i feel as if ive woken up from an awful dream and its left me with a drewry feeling i cant seem to shake. and it seems only time will help this pass, yet time is what has brought it upon. the music is what keeps me afloat, gives me hope that dreams can come true and even in the most difficult of times you can smile truely laugh geniunenly be happy ( Read more... )

all of this is happeneing at once. and i dont know how to see a positive way out. today i did nothing well besides take my drivers test and fail. me and ashley did nothing and im totally okay with that. we just both realized we are done talking bout all these things we want to do and need to start doing them and making them happen. and once i get ( Read more... )