i have to tough out the remainder of the school year. i have to keep saving up my work money if i want to enjoy this summer. i have to try not to cut off all of my friends and maintain somewhat of a social life. my responsiblities are plenty-of-whelming, but not quite overwhelming. i am learning to deal with things a whole lot better. at the same ( Read more... )

this month is bitter and endless ( Read more... )

oh the festivities are finally coming to a close. i suppose it has been a nice little break, though for some reason, the past two weeks of my life have become full of more drama than i have ever previously witnessed. i do not mean drama the way teenagers use it when fighting between boyfriends or friends talking behind eachothers backs. i mean real ( Read more... )

i am not going to wait for anyone to make things better for me ( Read more... )

that is the catch ( Read more... )

i'm actually fine.

i can not remember the last time i had a real, genuinely good time. how can that be? i need some striking factor to shake things up a bit. something or someone to entertain me for more than ten minutes. someone i can take home with me. maybe after a while people run out of stories to tell or acts to put on or something as simple as energy. as of ( Read more... )

here is the rush ( Read more... )

the last few days i have been trying to enjoy what i'm not even sure should be considered as "summer". cramming in this and that. for the most part i found myself lazing around or sitting in the middle of my backyard with my head up towards the sun or fixing some little part of my room or anything that would get my head out of the sand ( Read more... )

logic is dead.

after a slow humdrum month of july, disorder is in motion once again. suffice it to say i'm quite okay.

i have no idea what is going on inside my brain. my mind and i have trouble cooperating now and again. let's take a trip to the inside and i'll show some flashes and snipets of what's going on in my nogin.

( lkdaf'kdsfsadaj )