clouds hang heavy. and terribly low.
typical weather here.
rain out your days, sweat out your nights.

the drooping of the mouth is becoming alot more frequent.
the tugs,
thier elasticity....are they losing strength?

what's real and not.
becoming a blur, no longer distinguishable.
drops fill shallow wells.
faster than air fills shalllow lungs.

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today was a good day, i think.
not because anything GOOD happened. but because......
i wasn't plagued by sad.
i dunno, none of what i think ever makes sense to me so why should it to you?

i kinda read a dictionary today. seems like i'm constantly on a hunt for new words.
all the ones i know never seem to be enough to fully represent what's in my
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chris benoit. enter sentiment of awe and dismay here.
i feel so unbearably sad.
not just for him, and for what he must've been feeling to do what he did.
but for me, i think.
the days get grayer, the tears get heavier, the mind gets cloudier.
i don't know where the fuck to go from here.

holy shit. i wrote. imagine that. i haven't written anything in like two years. and this is what came out of it, it's unbeta'd, and the spacing and what not, yeah, i don't even know. [it was a fucking mission to get this posted, ok?] don't own, don't sue since that seems to be a bug issue these days. read it, or don't, in michael's words, 'whatev.'

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Oh, the fun times.

JOHNNY: I know it's wrong but isn't it funny?
TANYA: Dude, you're so going to hell.
JOHNNY: Is this a smoking car?
TANYA: Why the hell do you think I'm going into this gas station?
BOTH ERRUPT INTO LAUGHTER.
JOHNNY AND TANYA IN UNISON: Oh, this is going to be a fun trip.

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going on day 4. yes, 4, cuatro, quat.
WITH NO GODDAMN SLEEP.
not that sleep is essential, because seriously, we can do that when we're dead.
BUT...fourth consecutive sun up? that CAN'T be healthy can it?
and the headaches have returned, and hardcore.
ma gave me one of her rx pills. it helped the headache.
too bad it felt like i was functioning in water.
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it seems as though.....
well, i'm not here. and i'm certainly not there. i'm lost in translation, i guess.
no one to talk to, yet everyone wants to hear what i have to say.
we're all stuck in the same box yet no one really understands.

my head seems to be this swimmingly toxic river.
full of words, phrases, numbers, lines, and what nots.
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so, it's been awhile. 
but, yeah. here i am.
not much excitement on my end.
finally started working again. of course i hate the job but.....
it pays the bills. lol. other than that there have been no major changes.
my cousin is mad at me. i think she's waiting for me to apologize and it's not going to happen.
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