I've been laying quite low since beginning of December. I've managed to be busy without socializing at all! I've actually been having affairs with my doctors, at least, to my silly co-workers, that's what I have been doing since I have a date with one doctor after another non-stop. My doctors love me so much they prescribed me already about $500 ( Read more... )

My body is rapidly deteriorating along with my mind. I have been to the doctors 6 times in 2 months and will be going to them again 3 times in the next 2 weeks. I have been getting this and that everywhere and they say it's my already weak immune system's reaction to my extremely depressed state, which I have been keeping at bay for 30 years, but ( Read more... )

My new routine is doing pretty well for me. I'm feeling much lighter and happier by myself, feeling less down and out, just because I decided to change my mindset and simply refuse to over-think things. Just relax, breathe, go about my chores, pamper myself after doing a job well done, and say it is okay to indulge and not feel guilty about it. It ( Read more... )

I was going to write a few times, but I never got to doing it. Maybe it's because whatever I am about to write doesn't really matter at all. Or maybe it's the same old, same old. Which more likely it is ( Read more... )

My parents suggested that I go back to the Philippines to live, if I am having a hard time over here in Canada. It seems that my hives and eczema are due to stress and anxiety, that's what the doctor said, and no amount of medicine could cure them, but a dose of psychotherapy might help. I'm not really jumping at the idea, but when my aunt, who now ( Read more... )

I guess I spoke too soon. I feel like singing Bif Naked's "Moment of Weakness." I thought I'm going to swear off men, feeling like Bridget Jones. Then I said, if I don't hear back from Luigi (one of the derailing trains) any time soon, I am not going to wait for him. Like I didn't wait for the pony either. Not that Luigi can satisfy my hunger like ( Read more... )

It was only two weeks ago, when I thought I would have a tough time deciding which train I should board regularly. I cannot hop on two trains at once, I figure, and I have to weigh the pros and cons of each train, and both were so tempting because they offer different specialties. I realize that I cannot have both. But while I was waiting, ( Read more... )

I just came back home from watching "Alfie" and Alfie reminded me of me, not that I'm suave and as cool as a cat like he is, but our lines of thought are rather similar. His un-romantic philosophy - or some version thereof - is agreeable with my thinking, to which I am applying in real life. The only difference is he sometimes overstayed his ( Read more... )

1. I'm sick. Physically, emotionally, mentally sick ( Read more... )

$10.35 (tax inclusive) for nine $1-thongs, I mean things. Set back $545.12 (tax inclusive) for my new wardrobe. Only possible if I lose weight, if I feel good about myself. But still working on that. Still have this stupid unbearable itching to deal with. Now I look like I've been swarmed by a flock of mosquitos. My family doctor isn't helping, not ( Read more... )