I feel so stupid at work, a loser and a dork and an idiot all combined into one, that's me. My boss seems frustrated with me because she couldn't understand what I'm saying, or rather I'm communicating rather ineffectively. But the thing is, I'm asking questions that need to be answered or else I'm gonna be screwed in the long run. Better be dumb ( Read more... )

Something must have gotten into me. I'm lazy and yet I'm not lazy. How's what? I'm a bum and yet I do a lot of house chores. Like today, I cooked three dishes. For someone who doesn't cook, that's a lot. And it seems that I also washed a lot of pots and pans so I had to do them in three sets because I cooked up a storm, and yet I don't exactly know ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do for my birthday. I'm not excited about getting older and achieving nothing. It's just that if I don't celebrate it, some people will get mad. Like when my parents got mad before when I said I don't feel like celebrating my birthday so don't bother with the cake. I don't see what the big hoopla about my birthday is, it's ( Read more... )

Last night and today, I was bawling my eyes out because I miss my family. No matter what I say about them, how angry and frustrated I get because of them most of the time, like I couldn't stand on my own two feet, I still miss them. Everytime I think I want to get out of the house, I'm slapping myself in the face. Why in the world would I want to ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up with a strange dream. I was at a Spanish-inspired house, in the living room, and sitting across from me was the pony. I was sitting on another sofa, the ones you would find in board rooms, leather, in red, I think. We both were waiting for something, but I didn't know what. Then the pony started to do his usual seduction, ( Read more... )

Channel MeTV is on.

Headline: Tanky finally gets off her seat, job-hunting process stalls temporarily.Last week, Tanky Toon went into an interview (almost got the hang of the process without nauseating prior meeting) and bluffed her way through for the job she thought she couldn't get, because it didn't matter to her as much as the copywriting ( Read more... )

Speaking of pigs, I dreamt the other night many things, among them one very short scene wherein the pig, me, and this other girl, Manlyn (my sort-of rival from high school in the Philippines) were eating at a restaurant. It turns out that they were trying to celebrate my birthday, and so to refrain from making me unhappy, the pig decided not to ( Read more... )

I'm having a serious lack-of-control problem. I couldn't seem to stop splurging and pigging out this weekend. Well, after slapping myself silly, I still went out and bought $7-ish health/beauty care product (on sale again + coupon - saved $15-ish) for a total of $217-ish for non-clothes. Then, as if to match my outerwear, I snagged 9 (!) intimates ( Read more... )

It has got to stop. I've been good for almost a month, but these two days saw me spending again, sometimes necessarily, but most times not. I've spent approximately $40 on medicine, $20 on accessories (I lost my clip-on this summer, didn't bother replacing it with another one so I went without shades for the good part of summer, eventually bought a ( Read more... )

I'm so annoyed with this non-stop itch-scratch-itch cycle that started only developing the beginning of this year and aggravated within the past two months. So itchy that I can't even sleep properly without waking up in the middle of the night trying not to scratch my face out. And no, this time it's not some allergic reaction to any medicine. I ( Read more... )