I had an urge to write in this damn thing today so here i am...I got this ridiculous livejournal from alyssa sophmore year. Those days seem like yesterday yet, in less than a week i'll be a senior. Four years at gschool seems like something to be really proud about, lasting in that place so long has only made me frustrated. I feel ashamed to ( Read more... )

So where to begin my terrible "week from hell" Could i start from the day one of my friends was brought in from the cops or the day i realized my best friends MAY really not give a shit. I may not get suspended however what has happened is definitely horrible and im going to pull my fucking act together! Im ready to spend the next couple of ( Read more... )

im going to explode with these feelings kept inside of me and livejournal is the one place that can handle my pathetic realities. I came up to my room tonight after hanging out with my friends went to jessica's room sat in there got insulted. Went to my computer spoke to her again, got insulted until i finally said that hurt my feelings! i feel ( Read more... )

I feel like i did this summer. Those are the only words that truly sum it up. The world is crashing down and nothing is here to hold it up. Friends arent here and yet i dont have a cell for them to call, its not like most all of them dont know my fuckin house number. Then again, I can't blame my friends for my unhappiness here. I dont ( Read more... )

So im finally home. the place that i thought i wanted to be at for so long, but somehow i knew my opinion on this god forsaking place would change once i got here. Tonight we had hanukkah yet instead of opening presents, lighting the menorah my mom screamed at me, my sister told me she'd rather i die than the dog and my mom punishes me because im ( Read more... )

You know for the past two years i've sketchy person after the next...well maybe i should fuck someones life over! Isn't that what they all do, haha this livejournal has become so dumb to me that i laugh at myself even writing it. I should stop being such a fucking coward and say something because im tired of getting fucked over. Maybe i should ( Read more... )

My sister introduced me to this song and how is it that it triggered so many times, memories, painful moments that havent escaped this whole weekend. I try to get past so much but the more i try, the more everything seems to catch back up to me. I just dont understand what its going to take to finally stop this god damn striving shit and just be ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being a brutal bitch. There i admited it! I have spent the last year at least blaming others for my words or pathetic actions. What have i done in the last two fuckin years? I have lost myself and im not sure who i even am anymore. Now however, doesnt seem the time to reflect on the past, but to move on and change! Each day ( Read more... )

the world is filled with hypocrites and liars! so lie all you want and laugh because as bj said, life is one big inside joke! haha bitches!...

Is it neccessary for me to have sex with you? Should i just agree with everything your saying? NAIVE, EMO, BITCH, FRIENDLESSS, FAKE, PIZZA FACE??...because i have my dignity and pride as well as morals not to give into you. Harassing me, is a great way to show that you really care as a friend. ha your not my friend, you find pleasure in hurting ( Read more... )