I'm falling down more and more, and before i hit the ground i want you to know that i love you. These people around me have turned into a blurr except very few. It's sad to think that nothing matters anymore, hope is gone, confidence is a joke, and my life has turned into one big laugh. Few real friends, no real family, no more dreams...whats ( Read more... )

So far this year has been a joke. I laugh at everyday i spend here this year thinking that it will turn into some happy memory that will keep me sane. Well its a little too late to wish that i dont go crazy. I am going crazy and as i told bj, jumping off a bridge. I'm killing myself emotionally. I spoke to her yesterday, what was i honestly ( Read more... )

What happens when your not sure if your best friends even trust you? I know one person does but the rest, i'm not sure after incidents or experiences if they even trust me...its a horrible feeling because i trust them...i want them to know im there for them but anyways i guess im mainly thinking about bj...i dont want one accident from myself to ( Read more... )

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Ok so i had all of these crazy thoughts going through my mind about alyssa and other subjects but i talked to bj for THREE HOURS and getting my feelings out the healthy way through a friend seems much more benefitial these days...so goodbye to livejouranl for a while...I LOVE BJ MORE!!!!!!!!!! hehe...oh bj read my location lol

I'm overwhelmed with new things and changes in my life...but somehow being overwhelmed isn't bothering me as much as it used too...Alyssa gets her letter today, its official...we are never going to be friends or talk again. Seems kinda weird typing this, thinking back to graduation but somehow i know this is for the best...for both of us...Ok now ( Read more... )

Very few know me, and im starting to realize that ever since sept. i have kept my feelings a secret. I may tell him or her whats going on in my crazy life, but i never let anyone in. I trust know one and its starting to hurt me. I feel numb to my friends because they know nothing about me. They knew my friendly and happy self freshman year but ( Read more... )

Sketchy bitches are just getting old...sometimes its best just to say fuck it and move on!! I can't help the lies, the stories, the fucking new things that i find out, but i can help being naive and oblivious each time...something i swear not to be...i have better friends...so fuck the bitch!! im moving on!

so another day in the boring three weeks that i must spend anxioiusly waiting to go back and see my loved ones...yesterday wasn't exactly a perfect summer day. I had planned the night before to maybe get along with my mom, go to the pool, ignore the phone calls that usually piss me off, but no surprise to me, nothing went right. I woke up with a ( Read more... )

Ok so im in the worst mood possible! Sketchy bitches suck in this fucked up world...ok enough said with that...I miss Sara fin kristen george maeve alex ian and michael so fucking much...i can't wait to see yall!!!...I love you all...11 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!