We live everyday ready to face another problem, heartbreak, maybe even happiness. Whether we want the future to come or not, it will and living in fear as someone amazing told me last night is just pointless. Theres no point in living at all, well what if your scared of living in the past as well. The past was a thunderstorm that has left me and ( Read more... )

Is it sad and pathetic that yesterday on the 24 is exactly a month of when i found out about alyssa and michael...its weird how i remember dates so well, i guess because the 24 is my bday and now the day that i found out that my best friend slept with my ex...weird the way dates all blend together...on a happier note its our anniversary this ( Read more... )

Everyday i tell someone not to run from those or the one that she loves...ok maybe in her case...it's not love but strong feelings. Well how can I tell her that when all I want to do and DO is run. Im scared of getting hurt so bad. It's a constant fear and nothing really does hurt more than getting hurt by those that you truly love. What am I ( Read more... )

I NEED A DATE!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH...PLEASE SOME HOT GUY JUST COME ALONG AND TAKE ME TO PROM HAHA im delirious because im in chemistry w/joni ray ugh!!! I love everyone like CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!~

i started to cry in the computer lab!!!! What the is wrong with me. Why can't i just get over the past, i feel like a horrible person...ugh!!!!!!!! Can we all please just rewind time a little!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH oh and I love Bj because he is one of the few...see findley your in there haha but seriously he is one of the ( Read more... )

My mom is killing me!!! I can't stand her right now and i seriously just wanna sleep and not wake up until i leave this house to go back to school. Im not really looking forward to going back, however i do miss certain things...I miss hearing findley and sara cackaling (laughing) at night, and then kristen and i pulling pranks on them. I miss ( Read more... )

What do you do with yourself when your a numb heartless bitch that will never learn. My mistakes and words are useless because i never learn from them. They seem repetitive to me..."i wanna change, i hate who i am, im not worth it as a friend, or i need to find happiness in myself". My words are so fake...because i say one thing and do another ( Read more... )

Im talking to sara on the phone yes, because for the first day, she isnt w/me either at her house or mine. She's talking about making pancakes even though she's scared she's goin to burn down the house. I dont blame her because she can't even cook ramen, or spaggettios...however you spell that...haha hope georgia can't see this spelling...she ( Read more... )

Yay im finally home in my own bed w/my mom and brother. Well at school, I had my own mother Alyssa/Elisabeth and well i consider my friends family as well but i am so happy finally being home again. It's been forever and now grand prix is finally over. Yes, I have to admit dissapointment came to my mind but now it's over and i guess i just have ( Read more... )

I have so much to say that it's all about to explode really...I feel all bottled up and no one to talk to. I used to talk to alyssa, but everything is so different now. Yes, she is there for me as a friend but things will never go back to how they were. Honestly, I feel like a horrible person. What she did was fucked up indeed but i can't stop ( Read more... )