i think that last night was possibly the worst night of my entire life. i'm not going into detail, because i'll probably just get more upset. i never want to go through that again. never.

i cried so hard and so long last night that i literally got sick and barfed. that, and i hyperventilated. that's never happened to me before. i never want it ( Read more... )

You are a Toenail.


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thank you for trying to cheer me up, for trying to get me to appreciate myself, for trying to make me feel better about myself, you know who you are. it means a lot to me that you would even bother saying any of that to me. i'm sorry if my negativity and poor self-image upsets you and whoever else. just understand that i dont say the things i say ( Read more... )

i hate being sick!! :-( and the worst time to get sick too, when jessica comes home to visit for 4 days and when sean comes home from being gone 11 days. so basically, i felt and looked like complete shit the whole day, which i didn't want to happen :-/ and i kept falling asleep :-(...

but here's to a new year. every year i think, this year ( Read more... )

ahhhhh!!

1) JESSICA GOT IN SUNDAY, BUT I SAW HER FOR THE FIRST TIME YESTERDAY!! brenna and i were in the mall, and all of a sudden, i hear "TARAHHHHH!!!!!!!!" and i see something orange running to me, full speed. JESSICA! ahhhh i was so excited!! i can't wait until she can stay with me! woohooo

2) THERE ARE ONLY 2 DAYS UNTIL I CAN REUNITE WITH ( Read more... )

christmas was alright.

no phone calls. good and bad.

i did however leave my phone off the hook for 3 straight hours unknowingly.

i'm so bored i'm not even conscious anymore.

i just woke up from a 2 1/2 hour nap.

i'm watching badder santa now.

i've had the same exact dream for 3 nights in a row. freaky.

i miss my boyfriend so much i can't even ( Read more... )

christmas:  the one day of the year that people can be as greedy, as selfish, and as self-involved as they want to be, without anyone being able to say anything about it.

the evils of the world immortalized within  "Christmas spirit." heres the thing about christmas--people either:
A)  go overboard with the church shit, "the true meaning of ( Read more... )

i wish that i was eloquent. i wish there was a way that i could tell you everything that i want to tell you. i wish i could find the words to say how much i hate you, how much i just wish that you were dead, or rather that i had never been born. i wish i didnt have to endure your turbulent emotional wrath that you seem to enjoy bringing up on my ( Read more... )

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MY REDNECK BOYFRIEND IS GONE FOR 11 WHOLE EFFING DAYS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO MAKE IT!! :-( ! i miss him already and everything reminds me of him

you can come home now, one day is enough!

blahhhh blahhhhh bllahhhh this is going to suckkkk

however brenner and i did have fun tonight lmao....TODAY ON OPRAH...i was almost vomiting... ( Read more... )