I find that i dont enjoy spring break because I am in no way fond of being home. It isnt that i hate my family or anything, I just find that i do not do much as a lot of free time to think is never very helpful for my personality. At the same time my laptop does not agree with the wireless at home so I am forced to either go without or use my ipod ( Read more... )

I have decided to make a small update because...well hey its been years, and I'm sure the few of you who even see this would be happy so see this. Things have come a long way from the last time i posed. Happy things and sad, growth and regression, and contradictions of character. One of the largest things is that Ive gone through most of college, I ( Read more... )

realized that i should get back on the meds soon, already tried to play "how far into the vein can you get with the sharp object" about 2 or three times. its bad if you are only home for about a day and a half and need counsiling

you ever realize just looking at someone or something that is reminded of you of something that only morbid curiosity gives, yeah, crappy day, although finished classes and exams for the semester

Well i handed in my English term paper and now that im done with it im kinda happy that its over and i can start freaking over the small things like havening 3 two hour exams back to back to back, lack of sanity prevents me from saying more of this, oh well ::runs around screaming on fire with monkeys pulling hair:: or something like that i dunno

Bleah, in keeping with eh fact i said i would try and update more on my live journal even though no one probably reads this and for a very good reason, no one really cares for the rants, and i never update. Ok so im really frustrated, see i wrote a paper, and i thought it was ok, then my teacher mentions something, see it was an art history paper ( Read more... )

so i feel like crap. I really truly do i feel like my life is just a long stream of horrible fuck and knock knock jokes, i wouldn't mind it so much if i could see something positive but....::sigh:: dunno what else to save besides the fact things feel like crap. i have a feeling im losing bits of my humanity piece by piece maybe things are just ( Read more... )

i know i know i haven't been updating but its been hectic, still miss them all, still crazy, still lonely, still all that other crap, just a few new friends who i doubt give a crap cuz...i know well enough that they have their own problems and i dunno....suppose im crazy and alone, you know the usual

hey its been a while im just trying to keep up with school, well ive been doing well and stuff but things have been a bit bumpy, a few weeks ago my grandfather passed and its been a little difficult for me i miss the big guy a lot, but i don't think thats whats getting to me i think its just...all the confusion and crap associated with school. ( Read more... )

Bleah i need to update more, school is ok, intresting people and stuff....dunno girls still confuse me its like im liked or not ya try and show you care biut....its weird