a new year has crept up on me with compulsive habits lurking in its shadow. i watched the countdown with pbr in my veins & acquaintances by my side. i resolved to quit smoking. a stereotypical resolution that i have deemed insignificant & gave up on one hour after the ball dropped. maybe this will be the year that i gain control. living for what is ( Read more... )

a 6:35 am flight elevates into a Vanilla Sky. I peer out the thick window & see the sun rising over downtown San Diego. we uncomfortably gain elevation over the Pacific Ocean & i don't enjoy flying as much as i used to. i grip the flimsy arm rests- turn up 13 & God- stare at the profile of the sleeping passenger to my right. i nap on & off. Chuck ( Read more... )

I want.I want.I want.I want.I want.I want.
There is no one else to blame.

i was born in the wrong. the wrong place. the wrong time.

you're not in this movie. you're not in this song. never. leave me paralyzed, love. leave me hypnotized, love.

i want to go home.
i want to go home.
(whereverthatis).

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there is nothing left to burn.

sometimes i wish this campus was vacant. i am definately not staying in san diego for all of winter vacation. it will just be me, my apartment, red wine, and this beautiful city. time to educate, explore, and make a shitload of money.

i own an actual journal now. but for some reason i keep coming back to the journal that seems more alive. i can type faster than i can write, & that is conveniant when i have things to get off my chest ( Read more... )