i. am. so. unhappy. that. it. makes. me. sick.

i am continuously going around and around and around in circles in his hell hole. i am banging my head against my desk just to try and blackout the frustration of being here.

Is this all there is and ever will be?

all i think about is art. isnt that what i should be doing?

its all i think about. its ( Read more... )

I NEED ARTISTIC INSPIRATION.

i need activities that i can do to practise. challenges. something!!! im going stale. Last night i tried sketching and i could only manage to do ONE body properly. The other one looks retarded. Well...in all fairness i WAS watching South Park at the same time...but thats not the point. I dont want my art to go to hell ( Read more... )

its the first day of spring, which means i survived winter.

survived winter for another year.

But this time, i wasnt sick nor did i GET sick, Although ive started dieting again recently :\

but i survived winter! :)

I have applied for 3 courses in Visual Arts.

Victoria University.

Holmesglen.

Swinbourne.

I really really really want to get into Swinbourne. That is my number one choice. I even spent money and applied through VTAC and through their application system. Its in Prahran which is like, 10 minutes on the train away from us...and i went to their open day ( Read more... )

i am so fat.

-sigh-

i am so sick.
i dont know whats wrong with me. i have been sick for 3 months now. my nose is just fcuked, my chest is hurting, i have heart burn or something, my throat is sore, im spewy all the time...its driving me completely insane. Brendan is gonna dump me soon i reckon if i dont get better, cos ive been keeping him awake every night with my ( Read more... )

i am not coping.

i need some time off. i am just losing the plot. i have lost motivation for everything and even getting out of bed is a struggle at the moment. I am sad, stressed, exausted, and day-dreaming about killing myself again. i need some time off. i cant do it anymore.

I want to go to uni and study art. i want to spend my days painting and ( Read more... )

Dont want to go home. Housemates driving me utterly insane.

im so sad that i have to go back to that. I love shevonne and brendan but fuck, They are driving me completely loopy with their arguing and having me in the middle that i had to come down to maffra to escape it. And they have been calling me constantly on the home phone bitching about each ( Read more... )

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i need some inspiration. i am in desperate need to write again.

can anyone lend me a prompt?

-smiles-