I dont really know... Im kinda depressed right now but dont know why. everything is going great! I have good grades finally! moving back to my moms was definitely a good idea. I have a beautiful new girlfriend. but still Im sad. why? I feel so confused. maybe I just need to stop over thinking things! thats definitely what i need to do. its just ( Read more... )

 so alot has definitely happened since my last sad & mad post. we decided to still be friends but it was still hard and hurt like hell. then we were playing beer pong one night and john was there. well i had to sleep on the couch cuz john was there. john was mindis boyfriend at the time. so mindi said good night to sarah cuz she played with us too ( Read more... )

so Im continuing from last time I updated. I had a dream where I was pregant and I didnt know who knocked me up. but my friends were bored so we all decided to smoke. I was freakin out cuz I was prego and they were like its not a big deal your cousin did it while she was pregnant and her daughter turned out fine. so they passed it to me and I was ( Read more... )

 all I have to say is that you all owe me a cake.

so this is my story for today... so I was at school in the bsu parking lot in front of towers. I got out and benben drives up and is like are you leaving. I say no. so I hop in her car and we go find her a parking spot. then we are walking back to the liberal arts building and there was a broken jar of pickles that I did not notice cuz I was ( Read more... )

 my feet hurt and Im really tired but I need to say something. at this very moment in time I feel worthless. I feel that all my friends dont want to hang out with me and dont even really like me. my boss mindi. I like her. yep. stupid I know and I even thought that 'hey if I like her then she has most certainly got to be straight.' dispite my ( Read more... )

so today I opened my book that Im reading and I found this really cool little exerpt. it was the first thing I read.
"When you love someone more than he loves you, you'll do anything to switch the scales. You dress the way you think he'd like you to dress. You pick up his favorite figures of expression. You tell yourself that if you re-create ( Read more... )

btw I dont think I mentioned how faith is stupid. well she is. she had sex with avry right after avry and mykala broke up (a yr or so of dating). slut! anyway thats not why Im here. I cant sleep. Im too nervous. I have surgury tomarrow at eightam. NOT EXCITED! Im just getting my wisdom teeth pulled. two of them. no roots. not even through the gums ( Read more... )

so I got back in town yesterday. Im so happy to be home. so within about a hour of being back I hear that faith went to a party got drunk and kissed avry. apparently avry really likes her. I told her that I heard and she said something like "well arent you the rumor queen". I replied "Im only the rumor queen when it comes to you becuase you never ( Read more... )

Im probably being paranoid. Faith. I havent seen her since the night I asked her out and she denied me. Ive texted her since then but I tried to hang out with her last night she didnt answer. I tried calling her today she again didnt answer! I hope shes not avoiding me. maybe her phone got taken away. I dont know and not knowing is driving me crazy ( Read more... )