SO I just went down some memory lanes of dating someone from livejournal. Wow, it's been almost six years since then. Kinda funny how and where live takes you ( Read more... )

So...everything is different these days. It seems like it at least. I feel that nobody needs me. I mean if I were to fall ill...deathly sick or even die in my apartment, no one would really know. Reason being...ok so I have a roommate that is hardly ever home. She works 2 1/2 hours away and is there on the weekends only. Mel left and I don't really ( Read more... )

So it's been almost a year since I have written in livejournal. A lot has happened in a year. I don't have a lot of time to write since I technically leave in 10 minutes assuming my relief guy comes on ( Read more... )

When I do sleep next to Melanie, I can fall asleep soundly. I sleep by myself and the only thing I can think of is death. Well to be quite honest, I don't think of it. It just pops up in my head. I just realized that death isn't just dying. It's a change. It's a new beginning, which is what I'm beginning to see...and feel. I feel different...I have ( Read more... )

So lately, I find myself watching documentaries or movies that are fact-based ( Read more... )

Life is such an amazing journey. There are more ups and downs than a rollercoaster at an amusement park. They send you for an emotional high and an emotional low. Sometimes I wonder why I do the things I do to myself emotionally. But you someday reach a point where enough is enough. You have no more power to love, no more power to fight and no more ( Read more... )

I keep falling in and out of love...yah...that song

It's been an extremely long time since I have updated ( Read more... )

There are certain days where certain things bother me...today would be one of those days ( Read more... )

I don't know where to begin really...maybe at the beginning. There is so much crap going on in my life. I'm not really sure where it's all going to go emotionally. I feel like I'm drowning and I'm losing my lifeline. For the most part, I do feel like I'm dying inside. But I'm trying to trudge along ( Read more... )