no rants... just thoughts written to a computer screen.

I find that when I'm in a really good mood, or a really bad mood... words don't come to me easy when i'm talking. Not that they ever do, but it's more difficult. Today was good... school wasn't bad... dad was home when i got there, and we pretty much spent the rest of the afternoon talking, ( Read more... )

no rants... just thoughts written to a computer screen ( Read more... )

long day, fun and shitty at the same time.

i'm so broke that it isn't even funny. BLAH

so i'm really confused. I let everything lay out last night to a certain someone... Thought that things were going ok... now i'm not so sure. I'm a worrier... and right now I'm very worried. Worried that I'm building emotions that will take me nowhere... blah ( Read more... )

Woke up this morning, overly tired. Didn't want to get up, much less go to school... but I dragged myself out the door none the less. Got to school, Raul walks up to me. "want to skip?" I thought about it for a moment and gave him the thumbs up. We met at the Chick-fil-a dwarf house on 92, had some hash browns and what not... then headed back here ( Read more... )

so... today right? not much to tell. Crappy school day, Rachel talked to mr.rose for me, now I have his sympathy... i think if i do well on his final he may pass me. (hope to god ( Read more... )

here's a song i wrote a while back... even has guitar w/ it ( Read more... )

mute my heart ( Read more... )

so, today has blown for the most part. I feel like shit, sick that is. Feels like I'm going to throw up. Went to mcdonalds to get a ceasar salad thinking it would be light on my stomach... figures that they DIDN'T HAVE ANY!. Blah. Now I'm hungry... but I don't want to eat... afraid that I'll barf all over the place. (gross ( Read more... )

god dammit... what the fucks going on with me? I always find these perfect people... and they always become out of reach somehow. I want to say what I feel... but I'm not... for her sake... i hate how shit works out. I'm only making things worse... fuck... i hate this. I hate hurting people... i hate hurting me... i hate this cold room... i hate ( Read more... )