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April11...11:52pm
....AS ANOTHER DAY COMES TO AN END
.....MY WISHES FOR 'MY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY'
.........MY FRIENDS......
...........SLEEP IN PEACE AND WITHOUT PAIN
.......LET THE ANGELS PROTECT AND GUIDE YOU
............LET THEM DRY YOUR TEARS
.........AND SPEAK....TOMORROW.
........my love, to you....freely given...diane -
TO ccord....my special, beautiful SON......COLIN!
BIG HUGS......HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!....
..............LOVE FROM ME TO YOU
..............A WONDERFUL SON
..............A MOTHERS DREAM
..............ALL THAT YOU ARE
..............SO SPECIAL, SO TRUE
......................MUM......love you!!!!!!! -
Oh Well..........
What's a girl to do...in 48 hours I've been shocked, depressed, sad, suicidal, angry, enraged, and ROYALLY PISSED OFF...so...my waist length hair has taken a beating from months of c-diff and mega-meds, deep blond with natural white highlights has become white with some blond highlights...so, go to local store, buy 2 boxes of permanent dye, didn't ( Read more... ) -
ccord: To all friends of ccord!
Just called hospital, Colin(ccord)will be returning to his room in about 20 min., they say all went well...waiting for ex. to arrive so we can get to hospital...I'm a wreck! Need to see him NOW! hugs to all who cared -
Seven Songs...
Concrete Angel, Little Susie:Michael Jackson, Arms Of the Angels
Castle on A Cloud:Les Mis., Tears In Heaven:Eric Clapton
Long Winding Road, Total Eclypse of The Heart -
ccord: To all friends of ccord!
Colin is at this moment, being admitted to Montreal General Hospital,
for surgery....ankle is too badly broken....needs 'metal plate'.
I will keep you advised 1. HERE 2. ASK ME 3. call home if you know him. -
I ask..no response
How long does it take to "join" a communnity.....
I've searched...I applied...I am still waiting
Tired of waiting...gone to bed...escape
nobody give a ......! -
Surviving
You'd think after 50 years the memories and pain would go away, the 'triggers' less powerful. Truth is, sometimes all it takes is a loud voice 'talking' to a child, a news report...another molester released..served his time of two years for molesting numerous children and destroying there lives, now is free to do it again...then there is the night ( Read more... ) -
no words
not fit for human contact, depressed, angry with myself, lost
going to 'choir', must find 'happy mask'......ta da -
Waiting, Tired, Depressed
I applied to a 'community site' on childhood incest survival,
not sure how it works or if I'll get accepted?...don't even
know how you know if you are accepted. Woke up crying silent
tears for, lord knows how many times/years, why is it that we
have to "wear our masks",smile,be happy....never,never show
the PAIN inside! Does anyone really care?