i'm so very sad, and alone right now. charlie left for california last monday.. and he's not coming back this time. he's moved there.. and i'm not quite dealing with it.. instead i'm displacing emotion, and throwing myself into work, and looking for a new/different job, and working out.. and just anything i can do.. every night for the pst 3 days i ( Read more... )

um, wow. i just read my old journal, and my friend toni's old journal. wow. where did all that shit come from? how naive were we? my god, i don't even know what to say.. i'm in awe.. i was so self absorbed.. jesus.. i feel so.. sad.. our lived weren't that bad, but if you read what we wrote, you'd think we were dying.. while we were in high school ( Read more... )

so.. my background disappeared.. and i have no idea why.. dammit, now i have to find/make a new one... *shakes angry fist ( Read more... )

oh! oh! my holy shitness!! the last two days at work have been like.. hell. i had to almost nija tackle one of the residents the other night! it was fan-fuckin-tastic! NOT. eeww.. sometimes i really think my job is going to be the death of me. oh! oh! and today i had to restrain another one of the residents today.. it was awesome, he fucking bit me ( Read more... )

How to make a sarah
Ingredients:

3 parts competetiveness

5 parts silliness

5 parts beauty
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lustfulness

Personality cocktail
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i am so fucking confused. the other night, 11-27 to be exact, charlie sent me a text that said "love you baby" i was elated. i don't think i ever could have been so excited... now rawr.. i.. i just i don't fucking know..i love charlie, obviously, and yet again, his actions are not backing up his words.. and.. maybe i could be over-reacting and my ( Read more... )

okay, here's the news form the world of sarah. i'm reconsidering my vegetarianism. it's been like 8 years. my family has not been the most supportive, but they've been okay. it all started the other night with virginia. we got drunk and decided to go to denny's, already one bad idea. we were starving and she talked me into trying a sandwich that ( Read more... )

'ello. how goes it? things are going. um, i'm still really confused as to what is going on between charlie and i. i like him, he likes me. sometimes i'm willing to commit to him, sometimes i'm ready to walk away. i enjoy my freedom, i like being able to go out, and have fun, and be 20, and not have to worry about what my "boyfriend" is going to ( Read more... )

hello. it's been quite a while. i don't really have much to say, charlie and i have been having communication problems. i need to know how he feels about me, and if he doesn't feel the same way about me, i need to stop investing my emotional self into this ( Read more... )

hi. news flash from the world of omi/sarah. i'm 20. whoopee shit. tonight sucked. it sucked ass. i guess i'll go back to wednesday night when virginia, beth, jessica and i decided to have a girls night and go to mojos. well, we went, and met a very cool guy named joshua, shua is what i call him, and he invites us to a party. jessica is prego so i ( Read more... )