Today means 28 days until the BIG MOVE. I'm so excited. The time is flying by much faster than I ever anticipated. We have our apartment. We have our moving truck. We have each other. We DON'T have this shit state and weather for much longer. Life is good and it's getting better ( Read more... )

I want these dreams to stop...now! Why am I having them? At least once a week it happens and I hate it. I never used to dream and now they all have to do with the same person. Grr....

Ok. Now this is getting old. I had yet another dream about Mike last night. Again, so vivid and we were calm but this time his baby's mama was in it and we got into this screaming match for whatever reason. It was weird. I think I'm going to call his mom and see if she wants to meet for lunch sometime soon. My mind is driving me crazy...

The other night I had the strangest, most vivid dream about Mike. I haven't dreamed of him in ages. The last time was right before I found out his girlfriend was pregnant, the next was right before I found out Greg passed away. The dream, for once, wasn't bad. From what I can recall, it was very peaceful. We were speaking in a civil manner, though ( Read more... )

Last night started out fairly normal ( Read more... )

If a black person is born in Japan and their kids are born in Japan and they speak the language, does that make them Japanese? Or Jap-African, Japfricans, Chiggers?

Just a thought

I'm tired of feeling like I have to please everyone; family, friends, co-workers... It seems like I do everything but take care of myself. If I try to do so, then I'm being selfish. It's to the point I'm making myself sick. Sometimes, yes, maybe I am selfish, but am I not entitled to that sometimes? I talked with a close friend tonight for hours ( Read more... )

I wish I would have kept up with playing bass guitar. I bought one last year hoping to pick it back up, but I just don't have time due to my insane work schedule. My boyfriend needed a bass player because his is quitting soon. Was offered that position. The majority of people I know are in bands. I've always wanted to be, not for the sake of being ( Read more... )

I'm so happy.

Matt and I have been talking about stuff. Good stuff, and I'll just say I'm ecstatic.

We've been thinking about things I swore to avoid forever.

I am in love with the most amazing man ever.

Kharma is being very good to me these days and pretty harsh on others.

Life is good right now.

I finally got my little mini vacation and of course I got sick. Had to miss 2 extra shifts between both jobs. I needed the rest though. Matt took really good care of me. He was so sweet. He bought me some Mr. Bubble and drew me a bath and read me a story. He made me dinner and breakfast too. I love that man ( Read more... )