i think about this alot. i mean, i think "what should i write about in this shit today??"..but i find everyday, i have less and less things to say. i have less and less things to write about. i guess i'm going down hill alittle. i'm not sure what i'm doing with my life anymore. i dont know what steps to take, i feel as if i'm walking backwards. ( Read more... )

Two roads split off from here,
and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear.

Which part of me ( Read more... )

I never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
all these voices
I hear in my mind
all these words
I hear in mind
all this music
and it breaks my heart...

suppose I never ever met you
suppose we never fell in love
suppose I never ever let you
kiss me so sweet ( Read more... )

Chelly spent the night last night. she was part of the begining of my new life. shes like a little Party Package all in herself. i could never thank her enough for the rose and the freindship. she's one of my homegurls, i mean what can i say? i love her. so we just got togather last night and toked, chilled and talked. and then this morning we woke ( Read more... )

i went to take my driver's test today to get my license,,except NOT. i showed up there and the instructure informed me i didn't have my 5 hour slip. my mom had it...but she cant remember even having it in her possesion. i cant really count on her for anything anymore. her brain must be slowing down orrrrrrr shes trying to ruin me. everything i ( Read more... )

more shitty news to start off another shitty day.. i cant beleive i'm surviving through this shit. i cant beleive my life hates me so much. i dont know how to tell him. i need to talk to woo..SOON-like today..or i might ...well i might just have to do something...

Judgement Day.

tonight was one of the most amazing nights i've had IN A LONG TIME.i spent it with danny horror, kye woo, Tom && of course, The Mooney. what wonderingful Phamily i have.i ALSO got to see KARA today...FUCK YESSSSSS. but for right now, i'm babysitting tom, hes had alittle to much to drink.hahaha. well have a awesome day kids!!!!!

i woke up about an hour ago feeling like shit. i still feel like shit. i'm drinking green tea with honey, that helps. today i have a meeting with some people-i'm not looking forward to it. THEN, MAYBE, JUST MABE AFTER, i get to go with kara to get some peircing's done. she wants some things peirced and i totally want to go with her. that'd be ( Read more... )

i got some news acouple days ago. news i cant even really share with the world. news that i have to hide for the rest of my life. i read midget;s livejournal..she siad she needs change..i know exactly how that feels. i need change. i need to get out. i need to get better some how. it seems as if my freinds are love, but when i need them the most- i ( Read more... )