And just like that, I'm letting him go. Every piece of me that I've framed myself after his reactions -- I'm letting go. To continually have this idea that he's somehow going to make it turn all around for me.. to somehow repair all the wounded circuitry he's left in me.. is immature of me. That kind of mind-state was acceptable when I was what, a ( Read more... )

I've been starting to notice patterns within my close group of friends and most of them don't entertain me past the point of becoming very unflattering. These things I've noticed have definitely been mentioned to them on numerous occasions -- but of course, as all things go, they become un-circulated in their memory. I would mention these things, ( Read more... )

I had three strange dreams in the past three days, leaving me once I'd awoken feeling very uncomfortable ( Read more... )

The doctor came in the morning, she held my hand and asked ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about the past relationships I've had over the course of a couple years and .. noticed that none of them have been fully healthy save for one. I've always left pieces of me out of the picture and avoided contact of certain parts of the other. I just always feel like when I meet someone they're perfect and when getting to know ( Read more... )

I was almost certain that as soon as I'd come here to type something out, I'd have no idea what to say. And that's what happened ( Read more... )

i left the city for you, there was no other reason. i did your wife a favour..
you're safer with me here.
..and you there.

i took the fast track - considered crying - i was stopped in customs.
quite proud of my half of knowing when it's over.

// when i came to this page to post something, it asked me if i wanted to restore it to a previous ( Read more... )

i know i should bow my head for all the things i've done and said, to speak with such disgust and disdain of my own poor choices and paths worn down. i know i should take my tongue into my hands, dismember it from my body and throw it to the ground for you all to walk on; for all the words that it ever formed and all the sentences it cradled within ( Read more... )

a box to hold all my thoughts. the words i wish to speak to express to you are kept here. in the dark, with no light to surface itself - it rests. waiting to decay with the next low blow. and these pains in my stomach make me want to run faster towards fate but it's all within. and how am i now waiting for me? tiny prickles of skin laying itself ( Read more... )

i'm a magnificent liar - but i swear, i'm telling the truth ( Read more... )