no matter what direction i face.. or where i'm heading, i'm bound to be disappointed.
the kind of feeling that stings my eyes..

so this is what being diluted feels like.

before i fell asleep, i thought of the things i was going to do.

commencing.

There are no guarantees in life, not for the present, nor for the future. All I know is that I'm here; don't know for how long. I love the way you live so intensely, enjoy every minute of life with space to swing your arms around, laughing loudly ( Read more... )

mid-terms were taken and as i got them back, i realized, wow. i didn't study at all and i deserve this. so starting from now, i'm going to start taking it upon myself to sustain myself from social events. i need to be home more. i need to read more, and study. i've definetly had my time out but it's really time for me to start taking things ( Read more... )

so i spend 14 dollars on a cd cleaner thing for my broken shitfaced car cd player and holy shit guess what!
it doesn't work.

i hate money and i hate my cars cd player.
yeah, basically a capri time.

today i was talking on my cell phone on the way to my car when i had gotten off work. i wasn't talking to anyone but i thought if it looked like i was busy and had a destination then no one would talk to me on the way to my car. and it worked. then i remembered no one really tended to bother me on my way to my car when i got off work. except a ( Read more... )

it's just that i go through all this trouble to invite you along on a plan that was made without you, only to, in the end, have you discard it like nothing. forget about me abruptly leaving my friends in granite bay to make it back to grass valley in time for this "movie" and in the end not even seeing it. forget about me running 3 red lights and ( Read more... )

And I claim I'm not excited with my life anymore ( Read more... )

one of my bosses at work was walking around talking to one of the checkers, and as i was walking by, i noticed he was saying something in reference to one of the magazines on the shelves.. (if any of you know by now, lance bass came out and there's a People magazine that says blatantly "I'M GAY" on it) ..and i knew he was talking about that one ( Read more... )

today i think he came to my work to see me. but while i was pushing in carts, when i noticed he was there (and me trying not to make it apparent that I noticed him first), he didn't say one word to me. maybe he didn't recognize me from the party i met him at (where he was drunk and i was wearing a hat at night) or maybe he did and realized how much ( Read more... )