Silence is ringing in my head
Stuck on repeat
Not much longer I'll be dead
So just forget me
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time

And it goes
I honestly dont know where to begin.. I mean lots have been going on. SOme are good and some are bad. Its hard to actually say what im feeling.. you know? I mean people would ask ( Read more... )

Hm.. you know.. right now a lot of things are running through my mind.. but right now.. my mind was thinking about one thing.. it all came to me when i started watching "My sweet 16" or something like that. It was on mtv. As i was watching it.. things were running through my mind.. Like picturing me.. wearing a dress like that.. or having a big ( Read more... )

( Im sorry im not perfect )

Blah.. this sucks so bad. School really sucked today. This is how my day went ( Read more... )

I wanted to fucking scream!! I want to fucking cry.. i want to break down.. i just cant.. I cant fucking believe this happening..

Yeah a few more days til Christmas. In a way i cant wait. In a way i wish it wouldnt come. Its weird. I mean hell i know that just about everyone out there loves Christmas. This holiday kind of bothers me. Because my dad usually becomes a selfish asshole.. I mean.. He would go out and buy my brother and sister new things for Christmas.. i end up ( Read more... )

I really hate the fact of liking someone.. and that they would never feel the same way.

Well it sucks its been almost a week now since i;ve been punished. My mom said im off punishment once i improve my grades and show her i am doing better in school. Heh. That probably wont be til after Christmas. Which sucks. becuase i miss being on the computer and talking to everyone. Like Becca, Steph, Chris, Gina and everyone else who i usually ( Read more... )

Its been awhile since i wrote in here. I guess a lot has been going on. So much has been going on that yesterday i stood home from school because i had this really emotional break down or whatever. I just couldnt stop crying. My mom was telling me that my dad might be going to jail.. even though my dad and i dont get along that much nor that i see ( Read more... )

Yeah im in study hall now. Woohoo. I sound excited dont i. Heh. Its fucking hot in this library. On top of that im wearing a long sleeve shirt. Heh. Yeah well I say i had a fun weekend. Its a first saying that i had a fun weekend. It all started off Friday night when Steve left a message on my phone and couldnt understand a work he said. I thought ( Read more... )