I just posted an entry for Friends Only~ so logged in & read!

Hope everything is going well with everyon! It's been a tough week.. Stevie's Grandpa pasted away. God it reminded me so much of my grandpa.. makes me miss him alot.

I dont want to hurt anymoreI've stopped taking my anti-depressants and i probably should start taking them ( Read more... )

Last night... "the biggest bar night of the year" i spent with the old group: Blain, Greg, Scott, Flo, Karianne, Matt, Jon.. everyone but few because they were upnorth~ ohh man have i missed them!

I overheard my dad talking to my mom today.. he was saying that he is worried about me.
I don't understand why.
I'm getting A's in all of my class.
It's not like i'm gaining weight or like I'm going to commit suicide,
i wake up every morning and take my anti-depressant and vitamins.

i have to figure out what to major in.. i still have so much to figure out.

you cant be in relationship with someone.. when that someone doesn't believe that the two of you can make it through anything.

it's so hard for me right now to write all that i want to.
I look back.. and of course i miss you
Maybe it wouldn't be so hard..
if i hadn't given all of myself to you ( Read more... )

So here I still am… after all of the twists and turns of the bullshits in life. I shouldn’t talk like that. For starters, I hate swearing. Second of all, I’m so happy with my life right now. When I take a step back and look at myself, I’m rather satisfied: Being at the university college level and doing well, meeting all those I have met ( Read more... )

This life is so pointless. Everyone is about one thing or another. Everyone tries to shape you into what they think you should be like. I made myself sick realizing how i allowed others to make me softer. This always seems to happen. I always give in. People may think it's selfish but i'm not going to do that anymore. What they don't see is ( Read more... )

"If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)
Just forget me
it's that simple
Just forget me
it's that simple"so it was about thursday night when i was wondering where my trip to chicago was. I checked my grades online and surprised myself at how well i did, then again ( Read more... )

There is something really bothering me right now:
there's something very impersonal about the way that everyone turns on the news to see what has happened in the world today. With the news playing, all of the viewers get basically a summary show filled with all of the bad things that happened which they missed out on. Of course then, if we dont ( Read more... )

I am very irritated right now. Not only do I have the worst stomachache but also I feel very uncomfortable. I’m definitely overtired. I’m always overtired and Mario’s constant “worried mind” is rubbing off on me. I’m worrying about situations, people, and things that will be fine, when I should just be concentrating on my own problems. I’m on ( Read more... )