It's just not working out.

My marriage really is over.

Happy Holidays to me.

Happy Halloween everyone ( Read more... )

Right now I have that horrible, cotton headed feeling. It's disorienting. As if I was just woken from a deep, deep sleep and can't quite grasp the goings-on around me. I really dislike this feeling because it makes me just want to stretch out on the couch and take a long, long nap. However, that is not something I am able to do because of the ( Read more... )

Saturday I took my first taxi! It was pretty nice to have someone just drive me around and let me stare out the window. It also got me out've the house and away from the girls! I went to Blockbuster and got some movies. 28 days later and 28 weeks later and that one with John Cusak 1408 or whatever. I was pretty disappointed in the zombie flicks ( Read more... )

I'm feeling quite under the weather today. It started yesterday, actually. Jason mentioned that his friend may have pnuemonia and from that moment I realized I wasn't feeling well. I was breaking out into full body sweats and felt incredibly sick to my stomach, then my throat started hurting. Which to me, is the worst kind of "everyday" ( Read more... )

I think a letter we recieved in the mail tried to attack me. I do not own a letter opener, I never have. I typically tear away a small piece of one corner, insert finger and rip across the top of the letter. Sometimes this results in a papercut. Sometimes it does not. Today, however, it resulted in a rather bizarre injury. A piece of what ( Read more... )

Tonight was Tim's memorial. It was at sunset at the spot behind Jason's work because it's just beautiful. Right off the water. He spent a lot of time chasing the girls around the lawn there ( Read more... )

I'm guilt of daydreaming about things that will never, ever happen. Not a crime, surely! We all do it. Yes, yes, I'm talking to YOU. Some nights as I lay happily curled up against my husband, my smaller fingers drifting over his larger ones I find my thoughts turning to the impossible. What if I could be a superhero with just ONE amazing ( Read more... )

Too often we take for granted those things that surround us each and every day. The people we talk to, the touches we cherish, the smiles that light up our life and the laughs that make us feel truly joyous from the tip of our toes to the tops of our heads. We don't think that the next day those people might not be there - we don't even think 10 ( Read more... )

First of all I would like to thank each and every one of my friends for ALL the support you have offered me. I got many emails and offers for phone calls and hanging out - anything to get my mind off the biggest blow of my life. There is no way to express how lucky I am to have people who care so much and I hope that we can continue to grow in ( Read more... )