I got copies of our final divorce papers tonight.  I've been dreading this day for 7 months and now that it's here, it's just as horrible as I thought it was going to be.  I'm about 50/50 on whether I should sign them or burn them - I could always sign "I never gave up on us" or "I never stopped loving you" or what about "I forgave you the day you ( Read more... )

So I've always been an avid reader of Post Secret.  Probably because I love reading all about other people's lives, but also because I feel more human and less "imperfect" when I read them.  Like I'm not he only "broken" one out there ( Read more... )

I wish I weren't so hurt by the fact that he has unfriended me and hidden himself from me of FB.  I think it's a maturity thing.  Please grow up and un-hide me.  Yes, I should appreciate that he's making it easier to separate myself from him, but honestly, I hate it.  As though telling me I wasn't good enough and he didn't want me in his life wasn' ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a little better today.  Christopher and I talked last night and I *think* everything's been arranged.  Yea, there are things that I wish were different, but they are what they are.  Jovi's taken care of and loved, the rest will work itself out.

I still feel like I'm in my own personal Pergatory.  I'm here with no clue of when I'll get ( Read more... )

Seriously.  The house is a mess, I have to work this afternoon, the family is supposed to be coming over for dinner, and all I want to do is run away and cry!  I feel like locking myself in the bedroom and going to sleep until tomorrow ( Read more... )

He continues to break my heart.  I let him.  I keep expecting him to change.  To do something good for his little girl.  Do something FOR his little girl - for HER best interest.  What I see is him doing what he wants and making decisions that are best for him.

He "countered" my divorce decree additions - sadly, with "less" than with more.  What ( Read more... )

"Wants and needs are two different things."

And guess what?  That's still true.

I WANT someone to wonder where I am if I'm not home at 10 o'clock at night, but I don't NEED someone to wonder about me.
I WANT someone to hug me, kiss me, and tell me it's all going to be okay, but I don't NEED them to.
I WANT someone to share in the day-to-day things that ( Read more... )

That's my problem lately.  I've become self-pittying and a bit self-loathing and just don't feel like doing anything at all.  I read K's FB posts every few days and it makes me so mad to read "... my boyfriend" "... my man" or anything similiar.  I just want to post "OH, you mean your MARRIED boyfriend?"  It's like just because we're separated and ( Read more... )

I love when he tells me that he'll do x, y, or z to "help me out" or "make it easier on me".  REALLY!?!?!?!?  Haven't you done enough ( Read more... )

How have I survived the last 4 months ( Read more... )