Yea! I finally have wireless internet, thanks to the lovely and generous E. I got here (LA) yesterday, after visiting with the grandparents in Tuscon. My gramps had his leg amputated on Tuesday, and he's already doing better ( Read more... )

i just got the latest arena homme+. is it normal for my breathing to be shallow and my heart to be skipping beats from looking at a fashion magazine? the textures...shadows...colours...photography...design...

to die for.

my grandfather is dying of multiple myloma and will probably have his leg amputated at the knee soon. so, my trip to visit E. in L.A. and K. in santa barbara will also involve a trip to tuscon. i'm not sure his illness has hit me yet - i have the thought that i should be more upset because he is my grandfather, but he's not actually someone i like ( Read more... )

So. I've been thinking a lot about moving. At this point, L.A. is the winning contender - mainly because E. is there. Working in the mountains and being away from Santa Cruz has provided me with the opportunity to figure out why I feel like I'm suffocating in SC. I grew up in this town, and there are many things I love about it : the beach and the ( Read more... )

Dear Universe : I would like my brain back. More specifically, the part that enables me to form coherent thoughts. And sentences. But I'll settle for thoughts.

The British are coming! The British are coming! I have no clue why this is floating around in my head right now, but it is. Also in there at the moment : that germinated grain of wheat in ( Read more... )

okay. i've been somewhat scattered lately, but here's a brief update of what my life has involved lately ( Read more... )

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why is it so damn hard to feelin a way i miss the days when i was bat shit crazy. the hallucinations and sensory perception issues were a bit of a problem, but at least i felt alive ( Read more... )

how the hell did i end up 13% fundamentalist? yikes.

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last night h. and i talked about health/trans stuff. or rather, she talked, and i listened and tried to make some sense out of all the emotions i was cycling through. she thinks she has polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) in which case it is likely i do as well (genetic factors blah blah blah). which would actually explain a hell of a lot (health-wise ( Read more... )