You know how the most random things will bring back memories ( Read more... )

so as my friends know, and people i allow close to me know, i feel like my entire life ive been searching for something. I don't know what it is, BUT I'll know it when I find it... Make sense?

I know I'm close to finding what I'm looking for. I feel it.

I made a New Year's Resolution..... to not allow my life to continue in the direction it was going. I've grown increasingly tired of going to bed every night and waking up every morning scared of my own shadow. I need to remember I'm a good person and my friends (the ones I know from virginia) see it, but I didn't until now. Once people get to know ( Read more... )

2011 was easily the worst year of my life ( Read more... )

So.... I'm having an incredibly hard time adjust to phoenix. never had this much of a difficulty being here. its almost like people wont be friends first... i hate it.

The creepiest parallels happen ( Read more... )

I'm barely able to keep it together. I just want to cry. Things hurt so bad. I quickly shift between this growing resolve, and immense depression. I can't live like this anymore, especially when living like this causes me to be alone all the time. I'm really not sure why things have to be so bad, or feel so bad. I just want to be happy. And by ( Read more... )

So... im not good at admitting weakness. Nor am I able to actually bare myself to people. However; It is something that I have managed to do recently, in that I'm willing to admit defeat. I can't figure out how to live the right way. God herself told me everything was going to be ok. But why does it seem to become more difficult daily? For those ( Read more... )

So oftentimes, i ask people what do they think god looks like. My mental image of god is that of a woman like queen latifah, crazy i know right? so, a couple nights ago before bed, i prayed, i prayed for solace in my plight, i prayed that something good was going to come my way, i prayed that i wouldnt be alone anymore, and i prayed that i would be ( Read more... )

2 Years ago, I moved to Tucson by myself... well sort of, I moved with a close friend and someone I wish treated me better. When I moved here It was under the assumption that I would be starting a new life, and that I would find something out here. (for those who know me well, I have been searching for something my whole life...) Unfortunately, I ( Read more... )