Lalala. Starbucks has a new logo. I'm out of contacts. I haven't had regular coffee in almost 2 weeks. My left arm hurts from working out twice in one week. I'm still single. I've concluded that I'm not going to find a guy any time soon, and probably won't for a long time. I hope I don't forget how to have sex before then. I have a German ( Read more... )

Okay. Pointless? All the students from my high school experience gathered in a sizable auditorium. At the front: a massive flat-screen TV playing a Christmas-themed movie. I had to step over Brandon Koehler and Chris Hoffmann on my way to my seat. Lillian to my right. Daisy Hernandez not quite sitting up in front of me, Caitlin directly behind me. ( Read more... )

I was going to post this to facebook as a note, which isn't something I do very often, but when I went to my "notes" application, I saw that the note I wrote when I was really unstable was still THERE. For everyone in my networks to read!!! C'est terrible! I could have sworn that I had either deleted it or at least changed the privacy setting so ( Read more... )

It sucks not knowing people here. I don't have a lot of previous experience with this much not being around other humans. It's ironic, in the sense that I wished to get away from people so many times in the past, and now that I really have that longed-for solitude, in terms of distance and every other aspect, I have to say it sucks...hardcore. I ( Read more... )

This is just about something that really annoyed me. That guy that I mounted in the alley at that party turned out to be a little too douchey for my romantic interests. *sigh*

For some reason we started talking about privilege in America, on Facebook Chat of all places. I think that the existence of privilege in America is very obvious, and I ( Read more... )

 I spent tonight alone, reading and wasting time on facebook. I'm waiting for SNL to come on, hoping Drew Barrymore will be good. I was dribbling a soccer ball around my apartment, and the stillness around me made me think of a similar night during my last year of high school. My family was out doing something, and I was manically (probably a very ( Read more... )

Julie Heck Congratulations to President Obama for winning the Nobel Peace Prize and joining the ranks of fine men such as Yasser Arafat

Follow up...  I defriended Julie, who hasn't spoken to me in 6 years...  I talk to people in Egypt more than I talk to her...  so her bf messaged me this:


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 I'm going to try not to give you a play by play on this one. The person who this entry relates to most has requested that I not use his name for fear that the 5 or so people who read this journal might somehow think less of him after knowing that he not only had sex with me, but had sex with me and his other former sex kitten simultaneously.

If ( Read more... )

Cannot sleep!

When I was very young I had a somewhat terrifying dream. I'm not sure how young I was then, but I often think of it as the first dream I had that really stuck in my memory. I might have been five or so. I don't take credit for this next thought (I actually heard Amy Poelher say it on her webshow: www.onnetworks.com/videos/smart-girls- ( Read more... )

My name is Nicholas Lemen, but I usually prefer the familiar “Nicky,” especially in the case of this journal. I started this journal just before my first year of high school and continued writing in it up through my sophomore year of college, after which I decided that the journal was actually influencing my thoughts and actions, that whenever I ( Read more... )