Sometimes my brain just defaults to "sad" because it's easier than being "happy."

Hating yourself is a really exhausting activity.

Hello, blog ( Read more... )

I was trying to be productive, but then I started thinking and couldn't stop thinking. So I'm here now ( Read more... )

Xena's slowly dying. She has all these lumps on her stomach that keep growing. We're pretty sure it's cancer. It is really, really difficult and painful to watch her suffer. She doesn't seem to be in enough pain to justify putting her down, but I don't want to see her get any worse, and I don't think she has very long left with us. She has a vet ( Read more... )

Well my exit review is done and over. Six faculty members graded me over eight categories on a scale of 1 (poor) to 4 (outstanding). I got straight 3s in everything, meaning "above average ( Read more... )

( I wish I could write fiction stories. I'm awful at characters, and my words always come out really... stupid. :( )

I have to be up early to go install, but I'm not ready for sleep yet... So here is something I haven't done in a very long time. A survey! And the answers will probably be long-winded, because I'm putting off sleep. :/

EDIT: I BROKE LIVEJOURNAL. For the first time ever: Error uploading journal, post too large. I feel kind of accomplished. Let me ( Read more... )

My depression over the end of school is slowly starting to pass, I think. I don't know. I'm just nervous about having to leave the structured comfort of class and a part time job to go look for something foreign and new. It's going to be strange and scary. And I don't know how to approach it, except with maybe a "fake it til you make it" kind of ( Read more... )

Since my last few entries have been really depressing, here is some good news. I am less depressed now ( Read more... )

( He's the only thing that keeps me from going back. )