yesterday was poppie's birthday. it didn't really effect me during the day until i tried to fall asleep last night and i was saying goodnight to him like i always do. it's almost 4 years that he's gone, and it really hasn't gotten any easier ( Read more... )

it's been a long, long time since i've written in here. it actually kind of depresses me to read most of my entries, because they are, well, depressing. so much has changed since i've written those entries. i can hardly believe it's 2009 already. when did i start this journal? it feels like decades ago ( Read more... )

today after cuddling with the boyfriend for awhile before he left for work, i showered, ate and went to tan with katiebear for a bit..after tanning we walked with spirit (jen's german sheperd) down through avalon to the green and played frisbee and did cartwheels. lol i felt really good about getting out and walking, taking pictures (i HAVE to ( Read more... )

once again i couldnt sleep last night but i cuddled with andrew all night so in a way it was ok. this morning i felt like i needed a good cry, so i read some past lj entries, but the one that hit me the hardest was the one about poppie passing :( i still miss him more than ever and i still tell him i love him and goodnight EVERY NIGHT before i go ( Read more... )

i havent written here in a LOOOONG time but i feel it'll be good for me right now ( Read more... )

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expect a real update soon, i have a lot to say.

( new addition to my heart tattoo, the new one is a broken heart on the right )

it's been forever since i've updated.

it's been ahwile since i've been really happy too.

i'm starting to think i don't know how to deal with things like a normal teenager.

although i had the greatest day so far. tubing and tanning and now partying and watching fireworks with the besties.

happy fourth everyone. make it one to remember.

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