I'm not telling anyone anything anymore.

From now on I don't have feelings.

Because they don't matter anyway.

I guess my parents were serious about me staying in 4 nights a week. I'm really not happy about this. This is my summer. I work 2 real jobs, babysit and lifeguard on the side. Which adds up to a lot of hours each week. Which means I need time to relax. Relaxing, to me, is going out and having fun. Not sitting home on the computer, which is what I' ( Read more... )

Hmm. Camp is good. The early-in-the-morning thing doesn't bother me so much. The counselors are all really cool and my third graders are cute and it's fun. My life is being taken over by little kids between camp, swimming lessons, and babysitting ( Read more... )

I have to say the past few days have been pretty amazing ( Read more... )

Eh. I don't feel like talking about the past few days. Some drama, but most of that's better now ( Read more... )

Today was much much better than yesterday ( Read more... )

Dear Friends ( Read more... )

So tonight I acted like a fucking idiot.
I'm sorry. It's cool if you guys don't want to hang out anymore. Or whatever.
I'm sorry. There's nothing else I can say.

I hate the person I've become. Inside and outside. I just hate everything.

Here's to old habits and addictions that won't die.

Awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward ( Read more... )

Somehow I got away with it. I don't know how. But I'm not grounded for the rest of summer, or even at all. My parents are the most naive people I know, and I feel bad. I lie to them all the time, and they have no idea. They have this rediculous amount of trust in me. I'm grateful, but I know I don't deserve it at all. I'm staying in tonight, ( Read more... )