heartbroken.

after three years it's gone.

.

i saw them again, on friday night.

i am once more left empty, unsure of what in the world to do with myself now. they are amazing. i am quiet, down, tired. i exist in one moment.

i love you.

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agency devolution ( Read more... )

right this very second, i would change being ill ( Read more... )

once every few months at work i worry i'm going to have a stroke before the day is out. my whole head tingles and it feels like someone is stood on my chest.

i long to get away from here.

i spend a lot of my time thinking about how much i resent you, how fantastic it would be to give you a call and tell you i don't want to finish what you've commissioned. it is always during the exact hour i decide to pick up the phone in which you beat me to it. and again i find myself working at something i don't really want to do ( Read more... )

my body has forgotten how to dance. some of my nerves remember, vaguely, but it was so long ago it's like every other memory. in slight disarray. the same for taking pictures, writing words and touching humans. there are no distinctive jawlines strewn across pillows, no tangled limbs in the sunday morning sunshine ( Read more... )

your idea is as good as mine.

i joined weight watchers at the beginning of last week. my first 'goal' target they've set me is 7 stone 11 pounds. i'm going to do it as well. it's going alright at the moment ( Read more... )

"If I had to choose between extreme happiness, and extreme sorrow, I would always choose sorrow. For when you are happy, you forget about spiritual things, you forget about god. But in your sorrow, he is always with you."