A long rant about my love life. Oh joy...

[the_crestfallen]

Wow, I know I haven't posted in this thing in a while but I've been freakin' busy. But it's not like many people read this thing, anyway. Probably only two people actually do (Hi Jeff, hi Moira

Comments

[slatterysplaid]

First, remember me? I read this, too, you know

[the_crestfallen]

Hi there. Yes, I do remember you and I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch. It's mostly because I haven't been writing in this journal lately and we only know each other from online stuff like this.

Anyhoo, I really appreciate hearing your advice and your point of view on this. But what I want you to know is that I always try to look through my girl's point of view. I really try to understand her and what's she's going through. I'm very understanding.

Your boyfriend, Brandon, I bet he's a truly great guy. And two years together, eh? That is something. Would you say you're happy with him and you love him? Well, then... isn't that enough?

Okay, well, I'll probably be writing more on my situation as things progress. Oh, and feel free to read my reply to Spaco's comment. It tells more about this other guy she "loves".

[slatterysplaid]

Well. . . hmm

[the_crestfallen]

Oopsies... heh, didn't want you to feel horrible or hurt. Was it the bisexual comments? Yeah, it probably was... Well, you have to understand that most typical guys go for that sort of thing, but when it comes to guys like me who just want a commitment with one girl and nothing else... that can be seen as a threat to a relationship.

I'm really super sorry if me and my friends comments made you feel bad. I guess they just kinda hit too close to home? So again, I'm really sorry.

I really do appreciate everything you've said. And I have talked to her about everything about how I feel. In fact, I made her read my journal entry about all of this (and she now has my livejournal bookmarked). I'm sure there's still more me and her need to discuss, though. Anyway, thanks for saying that you hope my problem resolves itself well. I need all the hope I can get.

[spaco]

Woah, man- get out now. She sounds really immature and selfish, and you're right- it will only end in heartbreak. She has alot of growing up to do before she'll ever be able to be faithful or thoughtful in a relationship. There are much more deserving women out there for you, it just takes alot of trial and error and time to find them. (Don't I know it)

[the_crestfallen]

You have the best advice, Spaco and I appreciate your input on this. It's hard to say, but I'm not exactly sure just how deep I am in all of this. Can I just drop everything and run? That's hard because I have strong feelings for her. The whole love thing, y'know? I think I gotta wait things out just a little bit more... just to know where this is all going. But here's the scenario: I'm her 2nd true love and this other guy was her 1st. They were dating way back when they were young but the dude's family was really strict and wacky and they made him break it off. They made him have to either choose her or them. He chose his family. Now time has passed and he's more free (also back from the army or whatever) and he might be trying to get back with my girl. Sometime supposably next week they're hanging out and I'm not sure what's gonna happen... all I know is that I'm 100% out of this whole thing if he and her become something more than just friends or if they "fool around

[spaco]

Another problem is the whole bisexuality thing. I'm not a big fan of dating bisexual girls in general, as they tend to not know what they're doing in life at that stage(in my personal experience). If she's wanting to explore that side and she decides to settle with you now before doing so, it'll more than likely be in the back of her mind for awhile and could cause problems on down the road between you.

[the_crestfallen]

I totally wish she wasn't bi. I agree with you that they NEVER know what they want. (In fact, I wrote a entry way back in my 'Glames' journal ranting a little bit on bi-chicks and I somewhat said the same thing.) It's definitely something I'm keeping a heads up on.

[rabidwolfpuppy]

Rory, you know I am there for you, and somehow reading this made me even more mad at you-know-who then I was after hearing it from you. I won't say not to date her, but if you do, date her. Don't kind of date her, or be her 'man on the side'. This other guy she's with is only trouble, and I know you don't want to get mixed up with him. Ultimadums are tough, but if you don't give her one, you'll be on her leash (figuratively and litterally), being led on forever. Spaco's right, there is someone out there for you, she may or may not be it. Hell, I thought you and Keeley were perfect. Someday things will sort themselves out. Talk or write, I'll listen.

♥

[the_crestfallen]

Thanks, Moira! You and Jeff are always there for me. Love you guys. I'll be writing more in my journal about everything so you will know what's going on.