i'm too sober ( Read more... )

so my vacation went well, it was pretty much wonderful. i got fed by family and swam in pools and visited friends and got a suntan. jeanne did my hair and i was very upset about leaving, but we got home without breaking down which is more than i should ask from my vehicle ( Read more... )

i've been lying in bed for the past hour considering death. considering sleep and then death. because i need sleep, and am going to die (eventually) but not the other way around. or maybe also the other way around, because i am eventually going to sleep, and i do realistically need death, or i'll just keep decomposing while i'm alive. and no one ( Read more... )

so the weekend went well. alix left with his family and i stayed behind to get my brakes fixed. luckily it took all day to get the brakes fixed so i couldn't go meet them. i told them i would be there on sunday morning but they decided to just come sunday afternoon to portland and have brunch. so we did that and it went well and i didn't cuss at ( Read more... )

so on wednesday alix tells me he has to go to his grandfathers memorial in longview. i ask him how he's going to get there and he looks at me with these big puppydog eyes. so i offer to let him take lucille (van of wonders) but he says he's uncomfortable driving my car. so i give him a big sigh and tell him that i'll take him, but there's no way i' ( Read more... )

today blew. blows ( Read more... )

i filled out my fafsa. and applied to PCC. i was hoping to enroll for summer quarter but it might be too late for that. considering now i have to go take assessment tests, and go to an enrollment class, and go see an admissions adviser. but i can do this. if this is the thing that's gonna pull me out of my slump, i can do it. i always say i hate ( Read more... )

there are people moving shit right now at the storage unit behind my house. it sounds like they're moving a fucking house, it's so loud. do they know it's 1:30 in the morning? not that i'm trying to sleep or anything, but it's interfering with my late night tv watching. assholes ( Read more... )

easter with the fam. stressful, i feel like i missed the weekend. it wasn't a weekend, more like a quest, to fulfill my family obligations. my mother is going to fill out my FAFSA for me though, so i may be able to start school for summer quarter. anything to feel like i'm moving forward. i got so much shit from the family, "so what are you doing ( Read more... )

so i'm at the mall the other day, and i go by this bra store and decide to go in and buy one. all the ladies there are overly helpful and decide to size me for a bra. i had an armful of 36C's and the lady sizes me and apparently i wear a 34D. crazy shit right? i've been buying the wrong bra size for years.

thought you should know.