I started smoking again, due to recent poor influences and an apparent low level of will power in my life... hopefully not perminatly. I quit smoking three years ago and successfully traded it, like all my other vices for another. When I bought that first pack after 3 years, it was like I'd never been away. I treated my packs compulsively... or ( Read more... )

I started writing my book. thats a plus
I've been really low these past few days. I wonder if this book has anything to do with it. I hope it doesnt kill me

When I was younger, probably somewhere between 10 and 12, my family and I went to Schartners Farm. It was close to fall, fall vegetation was an attraction, 12' tall hay stacks had been rolled ( Read more... )

I wonder if I started writing in this thing again if there would even still be anyone around to read it. I don't even care ( Read more... )

i wish i had an easier time saying fuck it... and meaning it.

I didnt sleep even a brief moment last night ( Read more... )

GOOD BYE PROVIDENCE

HELLO MANHATTAN

i dont know how i thought i was going to feel about this
or even how i do currently
or if this is what im going to feel
or it's even started yet

i have hated my apartment for the last 2.5 years ive been living in this shit hole

but its turning my stomach looking out the window and seeing all of my sad, abused ( Read more... )

just to complain a little bit more ( Read more... )

i got laid off indefinately
and i owe so much money it makes me sick
shit

i loved my job

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ew im so heated ( Read more... )