I don't know what to do anymore, I haven't spoken to you in so long, or have even seen you in a couple months, but it feels like it was just yesterday you left, I'm not gonna lie I'm still shaking, but I know your happy starting your new life without me in it, and I don't wanna fuck that up for you. This just sucks that I thought this was what I ( Read more... )

And as each day passes I die a little more inside...

New life, new clothes, new friends, new parties. leaving the past in the past

This really sucks, i hate feeling like this.

I wish I could rewind a couple months to where I was at least happy.

Things are not looking good :(

Shouldn't this be getting easier? its not. In fact I've turned into someone worse than I ever was before I met her, Im a monster, i drink myself stupid every night, go to work in the morning, half ass my school work, for what? my life is so routine now, i started working out again almost everyday now, hopefully ill lose some weight before summer ( Read more... )

My last entries were about my own self pity, but i was nieve in thinking that. You are not the person I thought you were. So whats the point in putting myself through any more shit, when the truth about things rely on a twitter account. How stupid was I in thinking you even gave a shit, when all you did was run your mouth behind my back. END

Who am I kidding, I couldn't start seeing someone else if I tried, Im broken. Never had my heart broken like this before, I try to go out and stay busy to get over this hump, but this hump is a mountain, I don't think if anyone else came around I would give them the chance to be with me, shes moving on, mainly to keep her sanity I guess, I try and ( Read more... )

Where do I go from here? I keep telling myself that things are going to be alright, but how? how are things going to be alright? when the person you love the most thinks its awkward to be alone with you? When will it stop feeling like my heart has caved in? I guess now I know what its truly like to be in love. I hope she finds her way back to me, I ( Read more... )