I need motivation right now more than anything in the world. I keep contemplating not working today, realizing how ridiculous that is because of my very soon lack of work, and going back and forth until I am left sitting here updating livejournal ( Read more... )

So I started this awhile ago in an effort to work on myself, whatever that means. I have been trying to think about confidence and assertiveness and trying to be a person I am really proud of.
Basically, I wanted something to keep track. Something to keep me accountable. This sounds super lame, but its honest.

in other news:
I am kind of smitten. It ( Read more... )

Its been almost a week of not eating sugar and I feel super pumped about it.
What I am most excited about is that I have realized this is something that I am completely capable of.

i want things to be good/back to normal for everyone that i love.
i want it to be summer and to go swimming.
and i want new paltz to feel magical the way it used to.

everything just feels so heavy lately (and it is).

today simon asked if i was ready to have a day that i would never forget.
i wasn't. i opted for cleaning.
however, today was the best day i have had in a considerable amount of time.

these reasons made it so:

my eye has not hurt all day
cleaning the heck out of EVERYTHING. my room, the bathroom, kitchen, &  living room.
a huge dinner of seitan, mashed ( Read more... )

+ Today was my second day of work in months. I am working for Matt Ross's mom doing some realty/reception work and it isn't too bad. It feels good to be productive and accomplish tasks ( Read more... )

i feel off lately.
my neck has been itching a lot, which leads me to believe i have some kind of rash but really that seems impossible. its frustrating and i want it to go away and it feels too much like my life (its annoying at times, and at others fine).
i took a census test today so that i can possibly get a job taking the census. despite the fact ( Read more... )

i am in rochester. i have been waiting to be here for what feels like months, and i am already unsure how i feel about it. last night was kind of emotional for some strange reason. i talked to my mom about family things that are fucked up/make no sense. we talked about my aunt for the first time in a while, and my grandpa, and between the two of us ( Read more... )

there is finally snow on the ground and even though its not enough, i feel great about it.

today i woke up to complete silence. i dont remember the last time this happened.
thank you gross weather, for making those god damn construction workers across the street stop.

i watched hancock last night. what the hell?