So I'm sitting here in a library near Bekka's house...
thinking and not thinking...

Not needing to think about how much I miss Andrew.
That's just a given.
An ever-present aching in my chest.
I don't like it.

They aren't together anymore,
I know who I'm talking about so that's all that matters.
Anyway,
he broke up with her because he needed to figure shit ( Read more... )

So... I'm leaving on a jet plane on friday. 
Should be... interesting. 
I'm feeling very excited... but as I get closer, also a little nervous. 
There's this hollow shell in my chest where Andrew used to be. 
His essence is still there, just not his presence. 
And that's heartbreaking. 
I miss him. 
I really do.
I just hope it all works out...
in the end I ( Read more... )

Started college on Monday..
soooo awesome to be in class with people that actually WANT to learn.
It's amazing.
A little overwhelming at the same time though..
cuz it's like meeting a million learning enthusiasts all at once.
The teachers are amazing..
it's so different to be treated like an adult by a teacher..
they are usually prone to treating students ( Read more... )

So basically everything is okay...
my parents know,
and love him.
Which is funny, really.
Because I wouldn't have tried so hard to hide it if I had known what a reception he would recieve.
Justin and Katie love him too...
my dad and Justin made plans with him to go wheeling.
It's... twilight zone-ish.

I think the weight of the parentals being lifted has ( Read more... )

so today was pretty good.
not as much of a roller coaster as the last few days have been.
i think they are calming down a lil bit...
which means they have bigger problems than to worry about mine.

i got a taste of life with him.
we went to the grocery store,
and shopped for groceries..
[what a concept]
but the feeling of it,
was familiar..
in a way that i ( Read more... )

ecstacy doesn't even begin to describe it.

SEVEN FUCKING DAYS BEKKA.

AHH.

If I wanted the world,
something tells me he'd find a way to give it to me.

Everything seems to be falling into place.
A few short weeks ago I felt like I was tumbling down this hole in the ground...
no end in sight..
unless I found an end in my own way.
Which would have been the easy way out.

I think I'm just homesick...
or I think I was homesick.
I'm ( Read more... )

Brandon.
Please.
I love you.
Don't leave us.

I am no Superman...
I am no hero,
oh that's for sure.
I do know one thing...
Where you are,
is where I belong.