Yesterday was fun.
Went to work at Safeway til 3...
went to Dory's on a spur of the moment deal.
We hung out for a lil...
and in the twilight hours,
we found magic by way of teenage mischief.
Oh the power you feel as a young one,
the invinsibility,
the chaos,
the beauty.
Being young is the new being old.
Literally...
I never wanna grow up.
Fly me to Never-never ( Read more... )

Staci, Pat, Colton, and the baby just left.
They've been here for the past week and although my house was a gigantic mess,
It felt so wonderful having them here.
It was like I was partially back home...
only not.
Now that they're gone I just feel...
empty.
We went to dinner with Aunt Caryn, Uncle Mickey and the kids the other night.
It was like a mini ( Read more... )

I got a job at a coffee stand up the road.
I'm excited.
Not only am I a Safeway go-to girl,
but I'm also a bonafied barista.
Yay.
Patti says to always bring a good book to read because sometimes it gets slow.
I have created a gigantic library in the loft.
I have three boxes of books in the car ready to bring to the used book store.
There is about three ( Read more... )

Hokay.
So.
49 days and counting.
[til i come home]

I've been doing some talking recently.
and some listening.
The danger signs are flashing around in my head..
but my heart is more sure of this than anything.

The time allotment is 2 years.
I will be 18.5 years old.
[to be precise]
In this amount of time,
if things have not changed,
and do not fit together ( Read more... )

Went on my first road trip in the new car today.
Freedom is driving fast down winding foresty roads...
better if it is your own car.
And most mysteriously...
and contrastingly...
better when it is with your mom.
She truly is like a best friend to me...
and not many can say this honestly.
She knows secrets [not all]
and fears [many]....
hopes [most]
and dreams ( Read more... )

So I walked into the ladies room just a few minutes ago...
and written on the mirror in black eyeliner was the following message:

Yo bitch--
I fucked John Ellis.

Yeahp.
That is definately my boyfriend and I definately did not write that.
I hate girls and their stupid catty ways.

Holy.
Shit.
What on EARTH is going on here?
I'm fucking happy.
Like.. "the good old days" happy.
And that phrase alone just makes me miss Bekka.
And I feel like if I sit and think about the "good old days" for too long..
I'll cry.
So as soon as my eyes start to well up with tears...
I try to change my thoughts.
It's doesn't work to stop it - once it's ( Read more... )

Hold on to me,

and we will fly.

I won't flee,

and you won't try.

I'll say the words,

and you'll believe.

Now is not the time to grieve.

Smell the flowers,

taste the moon.

Wake up and see,

I'm the one for you.

Smell the flowers,

taste the moon.

I hear your words,

you love me too.

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Someone made me think of him ( Read more... )

There are many things that have caused the degradation of our society. Two of these things stand out in my mind. They are definately not what you would expect to be detrimental, however, on the grander scale they are ( Read more... )

Yeah so I'm feeling the rush of the changing lanes.
I'm seeing more and more boxes piling up in my house.
I'm thinking more and more about the messes I need to clean up before we go.
I cried last night because I missed you.
I miss you,
the Arizona.
The godamn sunshine.
Not sunshine that comes on fifty degree days.
I need to let my soul breathe,
for it's ( Read more... )