why do i feel so alone while surrounded by people?

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i'm in love. gosh i'm awkward.

so i pretty much hate life right now. i had to get up at 630 for a 7am workout which kicked my ass. then i had breakfast then class at 9. showered and went to my 11. then i finally unpacked and did my laundry so i didn't get to take a nap before my 230. then i watched the girls scrimmage in volleyball b/c i still can't wear contacts because they ( Read more... )

i went to the library for two hours tonight.

too bad i fell asleep for 45 minutes of it.

art history will be both my savior and the death of me.

had my first two days of classes for second semester. it's going to be a rough one. i'm pretty decently interested in everything i'm studying though, which is exciting. with that said ( Read more... )

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i don't know. i really don't know. i'm not giving up but i don't know what path to take. i've got no more ideas. so not wanting to give up and not having any other ideas... where does that leave me? i'm so frustrated. I don't think i'm asking too much. i think it's unfair that i'm not allowed the same courteousy. i just want to help. i feel so ( Read more... )

my emotions should not be hinged so securely. when did that happen?

is it possible to feel more whole? or does feeling whole lend to the idea that you weren't whole in the first place? if a situation is to change and i were to not feel more whole, would i go back to being just simply whole or less than?

i'm pretty much the worst thinker ever... how confusing was that?