I hear the people singing

They are singing for the sun

they jump and dance and celebrate

the new day just begun

in their eyes I see the hope

that crosses every line

differences cannot withstand

the unity of mind

but in my eyes there is fear

for sunrise in its beauty

is fleeting and indifferent

and leads to noontime’s fury

Inspiration may blur

Lines of ( Read more... )

    What I don't understand about Berkeley is why people are so insistent on their success depending on how many people they crush achieving it.  At my 8 am Bio lecture this morning, for which I am never fully awake, the majority of the class voted to have the professor write extra questions about today's lecture for the exam, just to screw over ( Read more... )

I noticed today that I'm not making eye contact.  I'm at that terrible point in my cycle when I wish to god that  I had more control over some stuff, like the hormone flux that sends my serotonin levels shooting down and a wall between me and everyone else shooting up ( Read more... )

week one of school done. still no major homework, so I am wither and thither trying to find things to do.  sometimes I collage, sometimes i go down and bang out a few more measures of the sonatina i am slowly learning, sometimes i do a few shots and have long emotional discussions with people i would normally be to closed off to to have.  I want to ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what to think anymore.  Roy broke up with me on Friday and I still don't quite understand it.  I've been depressed moody and anxious for a lot of this semester.  I haven't been much fun to be around lately, so I don't blame him for getting fed up with it.  But it was like there was no hesitation, no regret.  I didn't fight him either,  ( Read more... )

I'm finally done with finals. And now I'm honestly not sure what to do with myself.  read books and relax I guess. I'm going to go down to Santa Cruz tommorrow to see roy for a few days, then back up here for a few days of chillaxing, and then on Sunday I am San Diego-bound.  Me, Rose, Roy and another friend in an old-ass volvo station wagon ( Read more... )

I've been remembering a lot lately ( Read more... )

I started therapy yesterday.  I'm supposed to try excersizing/being active for the depression and meditating for the anxiety.  or was it the other way around?  Oh, and acupuncture.  I went to yoga for the first time last night with some friends.  Now everything hurts, I had the worst headache afterward.  It was easy yoga but I still its still more ( Read more... )

so apparently I'm such a mess that I can't even make it to the therapists to un-mess myself.  I accidently set my alarm on silent and then overslept.  oh well.  i rescheduled for Dec 2nd.  haha, oh well, such is life i suppose ( Read more... )

I start therapy tommorrow.  I'm really nervous.  I've never done this before...attempting to deal with my plethora of issues is sort of scary ( Read more... )