so at this very moment, Im in london using my hostels net cafe ablities.. here with me is my older sis and her pal jacks; we have been here for 3 complete days now. I kinda feel like a loser because every night we have been here, we were supposed to go out drinkin but instead we come in for a power nap and IT happens.. we never wake.. til about ( Read more... )

I try not to sell myself short so much so that in the end I don't sell; thus, I'm either a failure or maybe I'm not who I'm supposed to be..

"I'm scared."
"Don't be, I'm here now."
"W-well where can I sit?"
"Anywhere you want <3"

me and cory beattie went to new york for the weekend and it was fuckin intense! our plain ride was jawesome.. heh well there was a guy.. sleeping.. in corys seat so he didnt even bother to 'wake' him. then there was a fat sloppy woman sitting not in my seat but right next to it, she apparently bought a seat for her manila envelopes and proceeded ( Read more... )

There's a crack inside my mind as if a crack within a wall.. a crack so small it took twenty years to find. There's only one way to breach this crevice so I close my eyes and begin to devastate the world I did create around this city of encompassing lives. Emotions that go beyond the confines of reality lie hereafter the spirality of my own ( Read more... )

soo looking back at this lj I guess I was kindof a depressed young man.. and here I am once again-- alone but I think Im ok with it. sad and yet Im at peace with myself<3 I dont know if at the end of the day Ill ever be truly happy.. its ok though, Im gunna start living for me now.. a LOT has changed since my last entry.. heh, I learned to type ( Read more... )

Write these words across the sky for every girl and boy to see: Death, disease, destruction, disaster - misanthropy begins with the letter "D!" It doesn't matter how it ends as the clouds fall to the sea. We will revel in rapture - knelt before our master - the one whom they call "D."

I think too much.. and too little.. Im sorry...

My life is about me as is everyone elses and can not be fixed with a pill nor with the people I turn into pills. What closure will be gained? Is it my fault everything is not holly and jolly? Everything can be delt with, it just matter of how weak you are when dealing with your own life and to what extent emotions go til you need someone to ( Read more... )

I think I understand how this entire lock and key thing works.. It is the men who posses a key.. well not exactly an entire key.. only half of it. It then is the women who hold the other half of one such particular key.. and what does this key of lust open? ahh, a gate belonging to one such particular heart - also in possession of that very same ( Read more... )